Hey. I'm just really overwhelmed by all the shit that i have to do. I have been having trouble taking things easily. Help? 

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I feel like i don’t know anyone and no one knows me anymore . I feel so empty and lonely it’s like nobody understands me . I used to think my friends will stay the same for my whole life but lately i started to feel distant im not communicating with anyone even the closest ones . I know they are busy doing their jobs or studying but we are in a quarantine so everyone is online . I passed to the next level literally im finishing a new show everyday !!! See how lonely i am ? . Even the person that’s constantly in my mind is confusing me sometimes he shows me that he’s into me by giving me hints but his actions don’t show that ! Im so bored with the same faces that I’m seeing everyday (my family and the me with pyjama and no make up face) im having new pimples every day im gaining some weight my mood is like a fucking shit ok great im starting to cry right now . Offff damn what should i do ? I know this is annoying but until when im staying like this ?
#friends
#love
#depression

Lonely

I wish i could just disappear from here with just a snapping of time.
I mean I really do. I didn't have the energy to live further. Nothing holds me anymore.

Anxiety

Tbh I don't know how I'm feeling rn. That's the problem idk what's going on with me. Im too scared to be alone but I cannot stand people around me too. I'm in between several emotions. And I'm asked to live in the moment but I just end up ovethinking about what if the person I'm with, does not like me for who I'm and is just doing his/her part of formality just to make me feel better. Or what if the person I'm with leaves me for some reason and then I'll be left with a void to fill I'm just too scared to face these facts. I need constant assurance that all these people want me in their life and for some reason I feel like I'm burdening them with this. I tried talking but I just can't explain what's happening inside my head and that's hurting more. It's all kind of a mess and I just wanna stop worrying and be with people around me and be happy but I just can't help overthinking ... It just happens out of nowhere and kills everything with me. I don't wanna be a burden neither I wanna stay the same. I just wanna be happy. 

To whoever reading this... I'm sorry to bore you with this ig. Thanks for reading tho. 


I just don't know how am I feeling 

Discrimination

Just feeling unhappy, disinterested in life and feeling like scared and anxious sometimes. Mom shouting and scolding and making comparison. Having suicidal thoughts and having mixed feelings and emotions bottling up inside and just wanna scream so loudly. I don't know these days I'm hating myself. Where to begin? Feels like why I'm like this? Am I failure? I feel like what is wrong with me? So many questions. Feels like everyday is just sad and anxious. Totally lost. Which career is good and bad for me? 

I can literally feel my mental health  deteriorating, day by day. Living has become extremely hard. One moment, I'm happy, beaming with joy and another moment, I'm torn apart by my own will. I hate everything and just want to yell and scream at the top of my lungs. 
I have a trigger, which makes me anxious and paranoid, which is people yelling and dogs barking simultaneously. That, I guess probably goes back to my childhood. Everyday, I feel like oversleeping, and if I do, I feel a sense of guilt running over like a roadroller. I hate school, I hate work and I hate myself. It feels like everything I have done and everyday of my life has gone into vain. I'm trying. I really am. Nothing is working. I feel, what's the word.....numb. and sad. And stupid. And irritated. And afraid. And alone. 

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