Hey I’m depressed since I was 13 after my mom passed away. Since young I’ve seen the toxicity my dad spreads. He used to hit my mom and he even cheated on her. He still controls my life where I cannot go anywhere without asking him and when I do he beats me and takes my phone away. This doesn’t happen with my brother and he could go anywhere he wants. I feel like a prisoner in my own home and whatever I do I only get mean words from him. I’m depressed to a point that I want to end it all. I’ve been holding on to the only hope that I will have a better future and hopefully leave this place once I get a job. I fell in love with a guy for 5 years but he left me too saying I cheated on him when I didn’t. He didn’t even care having an adult conversation. He just left and I tried killing myself alot of times because it felt like life only gives me failure and sadness. I don’t know how to handle all of from young age and sometimes I think it’s better if I just leave forever.