Hey i wanna get closer to you...
To you 

Heya I got, to tell you how I feel. 
Hey oh baby you are the only one for me.
For me. 

Love

Love you all with all my heart and soul❤️

3am Thoughts

Do affirmations work???
Please reply only if you've tried it??


Affirmations

Hi everyone new here. Hope you all doing great. I really dont know what to write cause i'm lost somewhere.

Failure

It's kinda annoying to read "i love you". 
My last relationship ( 1st and last certainly) traumatized me such a degree that , phrase - " i love you" irritates me.
Whenever I talk to any girl , i find some traits similar to my ex and starts imagining what had happened with me in the past and what can possibly happen with this girl too and deactivate my every social account until i feel like they must have forgotten about me by now.
I want to feel but i just unable to ignore a single point of similarity,  which is obvious that women do have some traits common, and end up creating scenarios by which they may hurt me.

Recently i helped a girl with something and we started talking and i don't have feelings for her.
Recently she said "i love you".
My inner self started laughing as if this is nothing but an illusion and end up typing "Ok".
I mean wtf , i must have hurt her by this but at the same time my traumatized self said well done.
I have heart about the good and evil but never really thought that i might experience it one day.


Frustration

So lockdown has been pretty hard on all of us and I pray to god everyday to help people in this and also doing my bit for the community . 

In this time my ex , who fucked my mental health pretty bad , it was barely an relationship but I was completely in love with her , and she threw me out jaise we throw out ants from our sugar .she dated 3 4 guys and the last guy she dated was a married man who was just taking advantage of her . During that time she started talking with me and I wanted to tell her that she is getting played and the married guy is only using her (we both have lot of common friends and we are all in small company so small world ) but I thought it's better if I stop talking all together and that's what I did .j switched company and now in a  better place both mentally and financially still single and though .We broke up in 2017 and later in 2019 she texts me again saying sorry for all the things she did to me and apologizing for that. Ever since then we talk for a while , take a long pause then again for a while then a big gap . Now agin in 2021 Jan , one night she texts me saying she is sorry and wanted to apologize for all she did .so we talked again .The married guy used her and then broke up with her and she has been played bad she said. We are talking but not like close friends or something . It's more of meme sharing on insta .
The problem is I still like her , taking to her for me is easy , I feel comfortable ,I am super attracted to her , maybe I still love her a bit but I DO NOT TRUST HER , NOT EVEN 0.001% . This pandemic and struggle to get ahead in life has made me lonely and distant from people but I feel good when I talk to her . I do not know whether I should continue or stop talking to her .
Any advice on this ??



I sometimes wonder "What if i suddenly disappear from everywhere." Does that even bother anyone? Does my absence in their life bother them even a bit? I don't know anymore.

The Best way to be happy is to Act Like a Child. 

I have less than half a year to make a decision about what I want to study in college. My issue is that I feel like I’m not genuinely passionate about a specific area. I’ve tried researching a million careers but I’m starting to feel completely overwhelmed by all the options. It’s so frustrating to read about all these great careers and still feel like I’m not meant for any of them.

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