Hey! I just wanted to say, I feel very lonely right now. I am that girl in school who’s friends with everyone and everyone thing I’m doing amazing in life and I’m never lonely but they dont seem to understand that none of these people I talk to can truly be called my friends. Out of all the People I talk to there are 3 of them i can genuinely call a friend but i dont want to talk to them about my problems because I think I’ll come out as this gloomy person and no one will want to talk to me then. Right now, my bestfriend is upset about something and he wants to be left alone and I have no one to talk to. I have a feeling that the man I like is probably into someone else and that hurts a lot because I was there for him everytime she made him upset and he still probably chose to like her. I practically grew up alone. My dad left me and my mom when I was born because he wanted a son but I am a girl. My mother spent most of my childhood in court as they were fighting my custody case and I was alone at home. I’ve never felt love. I feel like I’m not destined to. I always over love people and i always end up getting hurt. I started self harming when I was in 5th grade. When I hurt myself, I feel something. It fills the void inside me. The void that should have probably been filled with love.