I just had a bad day, it has become a series since past few days. The current pandemic is making everything worse.
What I am struggling with? Well, 2019 was a banner year for me. In short, if I have to tell you. Went into depression due to family pressure of marriage. It got so bad that I quit my work and pushed away my 1 year long relationship. Mental health of women in not a considerable topic of importance, so despite my poor mental health, family forced me into an arranged marriage within a short span of one month. Before I could deal with the change in my life, two months post marriage turns out it was a sham. The man I married and his family were fraud and marriage was a business for them. Even with all the torture and emotional abuse, I put up a brave front for my parents’ guilt, somehow made through the court hearings and anullment. And when I got over with all the things, pandemic lockdown occurred. But it did gave me a positive outlook to it. Although I am better, exercising, concentrating better on work and taking care of myself now. It gets difficult somedays, I get overwhelmed with lot of emotions on some days which makes me curl up and cry. Is it possible that I am suffering from PTSD? I am not sure. Should I be seeking help? Or I can handle this on my own.