Hey! I hope everyone is doing great! 
So I really needed some help!! 
There is one of my friend who is on my mind constantly and I really don't know why l, I get happy when I see his text and get nervous while talking to him and lemme tell you this never happened before with me and ik I could've confessed to him but I have a fear of losing him forever. Also the friend I am talking about liked me but that time I didn't had any feelings for him and I told her best friend to not give him hopes but now idk why all of a sudden after that our conversation have become less day by day and now we barely talk (I also got in a little fight with his best friend..) But I really want those conversations back, those times when we used to chat for hours and just went with the flow. Also it's my 12th board exams coming up soon and it's difficult to concentrate sometimes so someone please help me like what should I do? Confess? Or just let it be? 

Yes exams are definitely my no. 1 priority but abhi it's just becoming difficult to concentrate 🤧

Anxiety

Is he wrong or am I jealous? I met this guy over a yr ago. We both agreed that due to our situation (he is younger than me and I'm recently separated) we won't commit to anything. Initially when we got together and he drunk a little, he would get emotional and talk about his ex...that's all he talked about how much he loved her etc. I used to listen and sympathize. Now after over a year (he calls me his gf).. every once in a while he goes MIA and fully ignores me for a day or two. When I ask, he says either he wasn't in the mood cuz he heard about his ex, or he had a dream about her....I told him I'm not jealous and respect his past but it's over a year now and it hurts me when he does that. He has told me multiple times that no matter who he is with or how long, he will always love her.... I feel like I'm always trying so hard for his love and attention...a familiar cycle. 😔

Love

Is it wrong of me to ask my boyfriend to buy me things like a nailpolish worth 100 or a lipsticks worth 500? Am i too greedy for asking him to buy me these things once in 6 months or thrice a year? 

Relationships

Why do you love me if you are not over your ex? You will never truly love me if you keep thinking about him. I have to wait for your decision, your decision to truly love me the way I love you. When will you let him go? He was never worth your time, why don't you see that. He treated you poorly, you loved him, he used you, but you still loved him. I know I'm not being reasonable but I'm right here, I'm here to love you in open arms. Please let me in, I understand your weight. I felt like that after my ex broke me but I will not hold myself attached to a person who was not worth my love, that person hurt me. Used my body treated me like dirt  and I decided to end that cycle...please I know heart break can last a long time but please...please don't deal with it alone. I love you please see that. I'll take care of you.

Hope

I want to marry this guys but I’m too afraid if its a right decision. We’ve been on and off and my parents wanted me to marry the same guy i liked but his family is seeing some other girl for him. He doesn’t know that my family is interest and that i am too. I want to text him so bad but we’ve not been talking for months now and I don’t know whether i should text him or just leave things on god. Help!!

Is it worth it to stay with an emotionally unavailable person who isn't just ready to make a single effort to make US work. 
I feel so drained and exhausted everyday  whenever I bring up the conversation about how m feeling in this relationship and I really don't wanna give up so easily. It seems like he just can't see things getting worse n has nothing to say or have a grown up conversation about it. 
Fun part has always been nice n good from the start and we've been living together since 3 years. We've made such great memories together, been there for each other throughout. Faced career challenges, financial crises together. 
We were in long distance recently for 2 months due to covid. During this time I've been through a lot of shit. Lost my job , didn't get paid for my work and top of that staying with family for a long period of time almost after 5 years  I realised how much I've grown apart from their conservative beliefs n everytime I try to talk it out with my mother or anyone it just lead to another chaos at home. All of this pushed me towards severe depression and anxiety, which I've been dealing with quite sometime before. Felt like fleeing away somewhere,may be back to my bf. I thought of all the people he would understand and will work together to come out of this phase. 
But it isn't same anymore...as much as I know what I want and deserve I'm feeling myself going away from him day by day, after every conversation (one-sided) somewhere I give up a little on him...even if I don't want to. 
He just stays quiet as hell when I try to make a conversation or say the least of things that I expect from him. 
He isn't ready to accept the fact that there's always room for betterment in a person. 
You can not just counter your partner with some baseless expectation(for ex- even I want a yoga routine or I wanted to start dieting you aren't helping me either to cook nutritious food for me) P.S. I've been cooking for ourselves purely out of Love since start of our relationship for both of us alongwith taking care of almost everything he need n the house needs n the fact he never acknowledged what I gave to this relation is so disappointing. 
Like for real, such audacity to say this to a person who is constantly struggling to get out of the bed and start her day,who's feeling sick physically and mentally, lost appetite and what not..too little time to explain here in words. 
Now that we are back together and both working from home. 
About time I realised I'm the only one giving in this and no matter what I do,how much I care,how special I treat him. He just don't see it n won't try even. 
He doesn't even know what kinda coffee I like even after living together 24*7 for 3 years(made a cup of 3tsp sugar,milk n a pinch of coffee the other day for me). 
It made me question myself why do I bother to cook the way he likes everything and not even appreciated for it. 
 I feel like I'm talking to someone who has no idea how to LISTEN and accept your flaws and work on it for good.
I feel sufocated n still hope to make this work.



Depression

I am bit confused about the situation. What should i do? I am in relationship but my parents wants me to get married now but my boyfriend doesn’t want to at that time . He wants 5 more years to get stable and also we are from different caste so it is difficult for us to be together. He makes me understand that we should not hurt our parents as he is not financially stable at that time so he wants me to not get serious or not to hurt my self . When ever i try to talk to him about this situation he got stressed . How should i deal with this?

Boyfriend

So my bf and i are together from last 4 years and whenever we fight over something he never calls me and never msg me himself untill i call n msg even if its a month or 2 but when i call he pick and talk normally like nothing happened everytime it's like i told him so many times that don't you fear losing me man and he is like i don't have ans i am selfish i am so tired of begging for importance and love it hurts like hell my family is not that close with me i don't  talk fo them about anything we just fight  i don't have friends like i literally have no one to call when i wanna talk or need help and i feel so stuck..

Feeling stupid. Lol idk what to do in this case Coz it never happened with me before🥲 as I am an introvert, I never talked too much. And my mental health is like I don't want to live.
So, this online friend of me is attached to me Coz he knows me through my vents ig. We met on an venting app like 6 months back. So now he told me he is too attached to me and like talking to me and not even telling me what is happening to him and said just understand but I can't 😑. How can I understand? Lol Idk what happened to him or he is just flirting with me.
So what do I do now ?  
He wants to talk to me and I want to take a social break and but how do I tell him? 😖
He will be like I do this to bother him as I don't text him much tho just when texts me and now doing this after he telling me this. I don't want to bother him anymore😔. I didn't want to tho but what do I do? 
I don't . how much henis attached 


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