Hey, I am 15 years old an i am drowning. I am drowning in my own helplessness and insignificance. Everyday I have to see my mother slowly being consumed by her problems and I can’t do anything about it. Just being there for her is not enough. The only thing I can do is watch as the person I love is suffering.
I pretend that everything is ok that if don’t think about it much it won’t hurt ,but I feel like a burden to everyone, as if i was never born everyone’s life would have been esier, better. I am afraid that if I scream no one will hear. I often think about ending my life but then
remember how much that will hurt my family and friends. How can both your existance and your death be so painful. At the end of the day I find myself pathetic for feeling this way, for
P.S. english is not my first language so I am sorry if I made any mistakes