Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

hey guys! i am studying English lit at a level and one of my teachers had been very unwell and had been admitted to hospital at the start of lockdown. she set one essay to do, i emailed her and asked if there was a specific time for when this was due. she said no. i decided that i would crack on with immediate work rather than stressing over this essay. now she is well and back setting us work. she asked for the essay and i said yeah of course ill hand it in to you tomorrow. i had lost all the work that i had started and had to do it all again. i was now stressing because everyone else had finished it and i hadnt. i couldnt ask for help now because she was already pissed off at me. anyways i decided to get some help online and without even realising, i had copied quite a lot of their thoughts. i didnt think anything of it at the time as i just wanted it done. i now feel like shit. she has just sent me an email baso saying youve plagiarised and this is really seriously. youre in trouble and i dont want you to ever do it again. im super scared now. i have massively fucked up. i have never plagiarised before and i dont really understand it. we have prefect interviews coming up in 2 weeks and now i think i have put that in jeopardy. feel like such a shit person right now, honestly hate it when teachers are ashamed of you