Hey girl,
I am sorry that they hurt you.
You know, not everyone knows how to treat a queen, So, until you find the one who does, Just keep on holding your crown high and keeping those beautiful smiles intact.

3am Thoughts

@ Aruna G 

where are you in this beautiful world 
please come back 

Does anyone know this girl  please ask her check this post 

Love

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever get rid of my horrible mother and my toxic family. I regret being born here. I hate them so much.  I hate my mother a lot these days. Sometimes when she is talking, I feel like putting a tape on her mouth. Every fiber in my body burns with anger and hate, everytime she opens her mouth. I despise her- she's everything I hate. I hope nobody gets a mother like her. Sometimes I wish that I was dead. She has ruined my childhood and my adulthood. I hope she goes to hell.

Anger Issues

*Sometimes our lives have to be completely shaken up, changed and rearranged to relocate us to the place we're meant to be* 🤔😉

Life

Still grieving the loss of my father in law. Cancer sucks. Seeing what it did to him from March to November, then November to January was really hard. The difference from November to January was not something I had prepared myself for. I tried to stay strong for my wife and for her Mom, at the same time I had no outlet. I have already been battling anxiety and depression, which makes grief that much harder. Anyone having any coping strategies that have worked ?

Anxiety

when will it get better lol 

So I have a little coping mechanism. I don't do drugs or alcohol but this is way worse. I have really stressed and overwhelmed since the past year and my coping mechanism was guys. Not necessarily getting into relationships with them but having major crushes on them which eventually leads me to torture myself. I started coaching this year for neet 2023, and I wasn't even interested in the guy one bit initially.  But things are so slow and boring that I found a way to entertain and torture myself at the same time. And as the days come closer, I have been dreaming about us so excessively because I am so stressed that I can't get out of bed in the morning. 

Today I finally realised a fact that I was hoping would turn out wrong 'that my dad doesn't care about me'. well, news flash, he doesn't. he provides for me and fakes being a good dad in public but that's it. my parents are finally divorced and my mother will be leaving for our home country soon. she has no one. literally. and this man doesn't have an ounce of humanity in him to let her stay quietly with her kids. but that's ok. shes very religious, she believes God has written something better for her and so do I. from this moment forward, I have lost all love for my father, I still love him because beneath all the bad he is a good person, I know that. maybe I'll forgive in the future but not now. I'm filled with so much resentment and hatred for him and his family members. I just want to run away from this, from everyone. I'm waiting for my scholarship to roll in so I can go live in dorms but then there are my little siblings to worry about. sigh. its just so hard being so annoyingly human right? responsibilities, worries and all that jazz. I just wanted to let everything out. I have exams next week, and of course this had to happen before my exams. I'm gonna study hard, earn money and support my mother. i hope she lives long enough to see that.

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