Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hey everyone I am done being frustrated over a guy who doesn’t treats me well and sounds very boring now a days everyday I cry for him for his reckless behavior at times he makes me feel special and then he does the Same everyday I’ve been crying bcoz of him since January every night I’m already worried about my future my career my studies but now bcoz of him I’m more worried about his behavior towards me when I told him that I’m talking to someone else bcoz you don’t treat me well you don’t talk to me and I need someone to talk to me he was like he would die I started talking to the other guy I felt so special that I again gave him a chance .i don’t think I love him how can someone love a guy who treats the girl like a shit like someone who’s always present there for him,i only wanted to talk to him bcoz I have no friends to talk to I feel so lonely here in my college I have no friends, firstly he used to understand that and treated me so well but now I dunno what happened to him he doesn’t leaves any chance of disappointing me and then he says that I’m over thinking about him. Every day I literally beg to him to talk to me.yesterday he was talking to me and shared about what’s going on in his life and then told me to call him after 5 minutes and when I started calling his phn was switched off I again started crying like why he does that to me. I hate him but still I want him.my life is already a hell and he’s making it even worse!!