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Prakash @pra1998

here is my story plz help me, i could be long but i have said everything from my heart.,
I was 18 when I first met her, I was in school 11-12th standard, I totally loved her, she also loved me we both were in love and were ready to do anything for each other, we never touched each other, we just used to look at each other and that too 3 times in a day as I was in commerce department and she was in science, we were happy by this only when we go back to home from school we used to chat on mobile for hours and hours we were totally in love. and then something happens, when our school days were about to over I texted her that I need to talk to u she said ok, on the phone only we discussed our future she said whatever you want I am ready and we decided that ok we will do our college, get a job, talk to parents and get settled with each other, we both belong to a different society and that too from different state { in Indian society it matters} we both wanna marry each other. but after a month she came back from her one of her long-distant sisters love marriage and called me said u know I was in that marriage and it was hell for the parents of her sister they were crying that what she has done, family reputation has been thrashed, no one came from family,no one was happy etc etc. and she was sad thinking same will happen with us also, then I asked her what do u want she said no matter what she is going to marry me as she love me more than anything else and suddenly broke down by thinking about future, then we hang up, for days I was stuck in her words thinking again and again what she said bcz in my family it wasn’t going to be a big deal but for her family, it was a taboo, I started to think that bcz of me she will never going to be happy, her family will fell apart i cried for day that what to do i just cannot leave her, but with a heavy heart i called talked her that look this is truth that we love each other but i cannot see u unhappy bcz main purpose for marrying u is that i want every happiness on your feet and if i marry u like this u will never be happy she was just saying hmm hmm hmm, i cut the phone bcz i was about to broke down and eventually i did, i just cant say to her that let forget each other, then she texted me said r u ready to this ? i said how would i live without u, she said we will learn and that day we blocked each other from everywhere and i broked my sim card bcz i couldn’t control my self from calling her, then i moved to college, i was doomed I couldn’t sleep at night, my head always hurts, eventually i deleted every social media a/c insta,FB etc ,

And today its been 8yrs almost , i cannot change my self, i couldn’t sleep and my head still hurts, i don’t talk much, i hardly any frnds left, still i am not on any social media , man i am doomed , i cry once every month don’t know why, its not that i didn’t try to forget her I just cant whenever a girls approach me i just can’t look at that girl or in fact any girl. in my whole life i didn’t touch any girl, in fact i didn’t touch her bcz i didn’t love her for her body it was nothing for us.

frankly saying i tried to contact her in b/w { almost 3yrs ago }she seems different person now, last time when i texted her from one of my friends a/c she said i don’t know u, i have nothing to do with me, leave me alone, you are a liar and disrespected me very badly, she said doesn’t want to see me n ol, don’t know why she said that but from that day i didn’t contacted her, i respect her decision, she doesn’t want me its ok, but plz someone give me solution how to forget her, I don’t know what to do i am tired man, i dont know what to do i am 26 i am CS i don’t know where i am going, i just work, study ,work ,study and about 20-25 girls contacted me b/w till now but i broke their heart also and i m sorry for that i feel guilty for that , but what can i do … fuuuuccckkkkkkkkkkkkkk why cant i fucking change

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Prakash @pra1998

dont know i am afraid or not, just I don’t develop any feelings for anyone.
and I don’t think there is any hope, well its not that I want her I will be much more happy by getting just info about her on regular interval that she is fine and doing well. i am at that stage where I don’t feel anything, may be I should drop any hope of her coming back, ? its been 8yrs

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Prakash @pra1998

thanks for saying this directly to me, I think I should loose the hope first then try to forget her, thanks for ur help … have great days ahead , take care

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Preeti @preetieee

Tbh I had no idea love like this and people like you exist and I am glad people like you do exist the love u have for her is beautiful and inspiring and iam sorry it didn’t workout
Tbh I don’t know how to help you but maybe you shoud try making friends and socializing more and try to go on blind dates who knows someone might help you forget her just keep trying again and again and don’t loose hope

Prakash @pra1998

thanks for your suggestion, I will try. and can u tell me one thing as u r a girl , can u say that is it possible she might still love me or maybe she forgot about me? i heard somewhere that girls don’t remember these thing for long time, and thanks for ur time to reply …

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Preeti @preetieee

Umm look girls don’t forget about the person they loved they just learn to move on and live without them(even if they love them like how people say girls can love you and yet make you believe they don’t) and tbh girls are very unpredictable there are some girls who will still love you and then there are some who won’t do I can’t be certain about it, it totally depends on the individual person u r talking about

Prakash @pra1998

thanks for ur time, it really helps me to understand more, have a great day and life ahead thank u for ur time

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I think she has moved on and you are such a gem and I think she wasn’t worthy of you though you waited for 8 years . The love and respect you have for her is amazing . I think it’s better to give up coz she has moved on and also she said she doesn’t know you it obviously means she has moved on … but you deserve more and trust that the universe will take care of everything… !! Try to socialise and find people with whom you can feel comfortable and move on … there’s much more awaiting you in the future ❤️

Prakash @pra1998

yes i think i should lose all hopes, will work in that way.thanks for the support , have a great day thank u

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