It's totally okay bro this is same my issue , we have to just live with reality, engage yourself with activities , talk with ur loved onces , and dont give up ! U need love maybbe , or if u want to love , and then there are many ppl out there who needs love spread ur love their , dont waste it , lots of love to u 

Her memories hit me every time😖😖

3am Thoughts

God I love her 

Love

Her hand slip into mine, I slip into Paradise🍃

Anyone talk to me I'm frustrated right now 

Leave her or be with her no matter what the situation is? 

So it's been 6 years since i brokeup.
It was lil hard to move on,  but i moved on eventually (i think so hihi).
We still talk,  she's dating some1 else.
I cool with it
But thing is,
I cant see anyone else the way i used to look at her
That love ,it just went off
I am having a hard time to have that feelings for anyone

hey everyone - i'm new here and just need to speak. married now for 4.5 year.. we have a 1year old. just a lot in my head and no one to share it with. my wife and me just can't communicate without getting into an argument. I'm always seeming to be on the opposite end of what ever she says/think. I think Its stem's from the fact that she's aggressive, and her 1st reaction is always negative, loud and overwhelming. I'm passive, I don't like arguments/fights.. I don't judge. She's always critiquing everyone. she say's I don't tell her how much I appreciate her, or tell her how much of an amazing person she is, or how hard she works for the us. 

some background context -      
- I run a business, but not successful as such (I've got employee's and able to pay them but not bringing anything in the house) - I look after the baby, help in the house - do cleaning, some cooking, make sure I support her in any which way I can. 
- she's super successful, is a snr dir in a large company, and is really good at what she does - but super stressed. she's constantly on the go.. forgetting things, has left the stove on a number of times.
- she's a great mum - loves and looks after our baby like I do. I know it hurts her that she can't spend as much time durning that day as do. shes an really good human being, always looking out for others, doing stuff for others - but when it' not reciprocated, gets very upset and sometimes even angry. she' says she dose't care, but so obvious she dose. 
She's a strong person, and as upset as she is at me for not being the bread winner - has accepted it, and made it her mission to be successful and run the house finically - again she say's it don't matter that I'm not a bread winner but it does effect her, and come's out every now and again in our arguments. 
- I'm at fault for a number of things - it's not all her. I've had a compulsive lying issue. as a child if I did something wrong I would always try and hide/lie as to not get told off or hit. and it's spilt over in my adult life, I tend to give "lip service", and lie about sill things - just so not to get her angry or get told off. I'm not scared of her I'm scared of the arguments/fights.

last night we got into anther argument. I wanted to give her anther prospective and it turned into - "your always arguing with me, can't u just agree ect." I kinda lost it, and argued back. went into an hour where like always.. she's cry's, express's her emotions, how I don't listen, how I'm constantly arguing with her etc. then I shut up, just listen, wile shes' talking away, and it ends up (like always) of me feeling like I'm in the wrong, and that it's my fault. 

I've not slept all night again - I've got hands on work to do which I can only do in the evenings, once the baby is asleep, so I'm working till 2am/3am and then up at 8 or 8.30 depending on my day calls/schedule. 

I'm not trying to be a victim here, nor am I wanting her to be in the wrong. 

C   
   

Marriage

I am 34. When I was capable of handling myself, she came into my life. She loved me, the way people imagine. That was all unbelievable for me, but yet I was enjoying my time with her.
She came to know about our different religions, but kept loving and talking like before. When I asked about marriage she said it's not possible. When I strongly asked for marriage, she just started pretending to be busy.
Who responded to me on a single call was not picking my calls even after 50 calls. I became more frustrated and shouted at her to be with me. I tried to make her remember our love, I tried to make her understand me, feel my love but every time things changed after a few days.
I cried a lot in front of her to have her in my life but every time she refused. Now when she knows I am unable to handle myself in this situation, she clearly said I don't see any future together.
Now I understand why you shouldn't indulge in love. My mind is a mess, I know I can hurt her in many ways but I don't want to because I love her. But I can't keep calm because I know somehow I'm betrayed and this feels awful. Now I'm good for nothing, she made me the worst version of myself.

Panic Disorder

She called me matlabi and commented on my character in her anger in fight..she is my bestfriend and i mean obviously i proposed her too.

Should i call her or should i preserve my self respect..

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