hello, so i have been feeling very overwhelmed for the past 3 days, because i moved to my hostel after doing my first semester online. Our physical classes has still not started, so basically its still our no class phase. Now, i know this is me overthinking but i feel like i am not an important part of my friend's group and today i just burst into tears because i have been overthinking so much...
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as i said, its me overthinking, they dont, but i feel like that


Fuuuuuccckkkk life is so frustrating when you don’t know when at you’re doing is right or wrong 

3am Thoughts

I did not tell my family anything about me. Not because I cannot, it is because I chose not to. I do not trust them. 4 years, from hating for being sad and lonely to enjoying being sad and alone in my room especially in the dark. How wonderful, a space for my own and when it's dark, I cannot see a thing. Therefore, it felt as if I was living in an infinite space, feeling the strong gravity pulling down as I lied on my bed. It was only at that moment I wish time could stop forever or even better, take me to my novel world and let me discover what it is like to be loved and to fall in love with the main character, show me what it is like to feel free and enjoy everything the world offers, take me to places I could never reach in this real world, teach me what it is like to live without any resentment. Silly wish, but pure. 

Depression

Hey..,.ya kive aa sb 🤔😂

Dreams

I’m demotivated. Disturbed. Unhappy with my current self. How do I get back!?
Backstory- I’m not able to cope up with my studies and syllabus is huge. I feel like whatever I’m trying to do is not making sense 🥲

Frustration

Is there any glee show fan here ?

Life

Guys, I need your opinion.
So there is this cool, cute girl. We were good friends. But one day i got into a fight with her.
Then she said "OK YOU DON'T WANT TO TALK ITS OKAY DON'T". And next day i reply "OK". Then she blocked me. And after a week or somedays later i text and said "I'M SORRY".
But then she said "I'M BUSY RIGHT NOW AND I DON'T HAVE TIME FOR THIS THING I'LL TEXT YOU LATER". It's been nearly 4 months she hasn't replied yet. Few days ago it was her birthday i thought of wishing her but i didn't.
I asked my friends should i text her or not.
They said "DON'T. BECAUSE WHEN YOU WENT TO SAY SORRY SHE HAD NO TIME FOR THIS THING. NOW ITS ABOUT SELF RESPECT".
So what you guys think should i text her or not?


Confusion

Only if things weren't this complicated in my life. No one knows how much hurt I've been, what pain I'm hiding behind that smile and maturity. How much i wish if things were different, if i didn't think much about every step that i take in order to protect myself more. I don't know what i did to deserve all of this but i do know that i deserve better. Only if things weren't this complicated...

I'm stuck up. 
My boyfriend and I broke up few days back , 5% of the fault was mine. He fell out of love and likes someone else, idk if it will be called cheating or not. Nevermind touchwood I have got nice friends surrounding me, all of them are trying to make me realise my worth and I kinda know my value but some weird shit has been happening with me. I laugh so loud even at the lamest jokes in front of my family and start crying within seconds when I'm alone. I have lost my appetite and have ruined my sleep schedule. Yk it's like I'm kinda motivated and kinda not, I imagine that I'm all successful and he is regretting it. My friends are not very proud of this thought process, they feel I should imagine being successful but not because I want him to regret. I imagine being all strong and happy on my insta acc so that his friends send him ss and then he realises what he has lost. I am motivated but I hate the fact that all that motivation is because I wanna prove him wrong. And trust me, Ik it's wrong but idk what tf I'm even doing. I'm pretty messed up as a 16 yo

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