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Hello reader.
(Broke up today . My first relationship, not able to control my feelings. Can’t talk with friends and family don’t know how to handle and move on)
I had been in a relationship for 3years. My first ever relationship. Met him at University, started as enemies but ended as lovers. I was very happy, he was fun to be with. Never flirted with other University girls. But after 2months his best friend called me. Our relationship started with a lie, he was already involved with his best friend. I was shattered because within this little time I emotionally bonded . He promised that his best friend was lying I didn’t want to trust him but my emotional bond made me stay with him. Then for 3 years everything went fine. All of a sudden today he asked" will keep talking with me after my marriage". His family saw a girl for him. And he has been in contact with her from last 3 months. I felt used. I felt disgusted. Crying whole day isn’t enough. My parents don’t know about this , so I have to cry hiding from them. This pain is Killing me from inside. I don’t know what to do. I said him " I breakup and will not be in contact". But every memory of us is tearing me from inside. I don’t want him back. I just want to recover. Please help. Words are not enough to describe what I am going through. And being an introvert this is the only thing I could do.

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I think you should delete all your pictures together or hide the pics you have together, and maybe go on a trip with someone you like (friends, family) and just feel free. I hope you are okay now 🙏🏻❤

Anonymous

Thank you @bbibbikpop for your Time.
I Know your suggestion will work. But this lockdown is making it worse. I’m bound to stay home. All those memories flashing is consuming me from inside. I don’t want him . But I’m not able to forgive myself either.

Anonymous

What is wrong with him you are a good person and I can see it I had a crush for 4 years that only loved me after he dated all my friends so I understand I think just from what has worked for me that you should not focus on love life your life to the fullest then true love will find you

Anonymous

Thank you 🙂 for your kind words.

Anonymous

Don’t focus on him delete him from your life tell someone don’t keep it to yourself that is what I did and it was killing me and I had to look him in the face everyday just if that doesn’t work buy a tub of ice cream, a Netflix binge card and message me I think it will make you feel better

Anonymous

I have started dreaming of him. This is adding fuel to the fire. I don’t know why this is happening. Losing my appetite wasn’t enough that my subconscious mind is making me see him every night in sleep.