Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

hello, ill be 22 this year, sadly im still in college because my graduation takes 5 years.
the thing is, i had luckily got admission in a really high profile college in my country, but it was in different city so i had to move. i have huge communication issues which makes it hard to survive in my course, before that college i was a above average student and i never thougt i could…so much as fail, call it overconfidence or not realizing the intence competition around. living alone…i would go full days without having a real conversation with anyone. i found a long distance bf online, made sure theres nothing creepy there, but it didnt help me…it was hard to handle and the fights made it very hard for me to keep things together. added to that the food situation was terrible and i had to eat outside daily.
so i failed in first sem, they obviously had back system where i could re submit the projects and pass…but i didnt like the idea of failing on the first hand. i took a huge hit and got disoriented and everything went down hill from there. i had to switch colleges and came back to my native city and had a harsh breakup with that bf(after 2 yrs).
now im in a…humble college where chances of future are very few. im lost now, in a matter of few days i went from hoping for a good future(maybe abroad) to being so clueless that i cant find meaning in working at all. im very lost now and thinking about future just scares me. my motivation to work is almost 0. im always thinking about the opportunity that slipped out of my hand. idk how to deal with life now.