Hello, 
I have done a big mistake,
I broke up with my ex long time ago, because she is a chater,

I have never done anything with her, no dirty talk, or kisses or anything else.

Recently she came back and seduced me,
we were so naughty in talking and we ended up saying i love you to each other, everyday..😭

I don't want that, i wanna get out of it.





Yes i made a mistake...
I wanna fix what i can be fixed

The reason is... i wanna something real,
I don't wanna mess around more.

She wants to do that and leave...
She wants that without marriage

You are rare brother... good to hear that.. yeah just leave her.. she is not going to stay longer anyway.. I hope you find someone like you.. 

Why don't you want to get physical with her? Is there any reason? 

Life

Being an introvert the biggest mistake of my life was to get attached to someone who left me at my lowest.....she used to force me to share my feelings with her, at first i was not very much comfortable with that however as the time passes by i started sharing all my feelings and problems with her.....but in the end she told me she have feelings for another guy that too after 4 years, once i called her during the initial phase of our breakup and that guy picked up the call and said she don't want to be with me and also he told me everything that i only shared with her, i got shattered into pieces.....i don't think i will be able to share my feelings with another person 

Breakup

How can I survive? I dont have money, job and everything seems to be falling apart in my life. I am afraid e everythings seems like suicide is my way out.

I am tired of living like this, I am not like other people, my mind is falling apart and I cant find professional help because of moneyand everything I depend on my sister and dad.

I am tired of this life

Depression

By the word 'breakup' most of you think that a breakup between a boy and a girl but the reality is that every relationship has ups and downs and breakups too.
Why does breakup happen ?
What is the reason behind it?
So,I had a tendency of falling in love very easily. And getting hurt also.
Gradually i started believing love is not made for me,i won't get anyone who will love me.
I'm sure a lot of people must have faced similar situations.
But then i realised till the time you don't love yourself,how can you expect someone else to love you?
Till the time you don't love your flaws nobody will.
Till the time you don't love your life/work/family etc nobody will.
Till the time you are not happy with yourself,don't expect others to be happy with you /love you unconditionally.
Being in any kind of relationship out of loneliness is like having a toxic relation with anyone in the long run,you will feel good in the short run and think that this is the right person for the time being but at the end you will hurt yourself.
I'm not saying true love/love at first sight doesn't exist,but please don't hurt yourself at the end of the day.At the end of the day you are the only one you have.
Love yourself the most,give time to yourself ,make yourself your first priority.
UTILISE YOUR TIME.
YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE.

Relationships

My boyfriend stares at girls while he is out with his friends and this thing really makes me feel bad I told him this but he doesn't see this as anything wrong....is this normal for boys to do things like this with friends or am I overreacting 

3am Thoughts

I want to write a letter, 
For no one to read it.... 
Burn it to ashes and 
Let it dissapear in the stars.. 
Will they call it star dust or will be just another piece of paper with ases dark as night, without a moon to shine. Like the darkness of the blackhole that absorves everything untill all is totally gone.gone forever... Forever since it started forever since the paper has been made, to be used. Used the purpose to be witten with the stories of others with letters and numbers. Letters that are hard to be read and numbers not all are smart enough to understand. Understand how many zeroes been added since it all started. To understand why someone screams to the void.Without any voice with a war within themselves between heart and mind. Between what exist and what could have been. The fights fought on behalf of others sometimes to figure out the own self and sometimes to have others. Have them so they could be of use. To be someone to them. To be the wall that can be used to lean on. Lean and stay for a while. Stay and live for a while. While they and question themselves and question that leads to some untold promises. Aren't humans complicated to create emotion chain to use and be used in exchange of love to survive. My bad... To live. Live a life they said. And for what echoed in the empty room of the heart that never have lived or loved. They say love fills the empty spaces with colors that stays.. Maybe in colors of rose....or blood.When it's just red without a definition. Without a warning of danger or without the hint of pleasure or without the essence of beauty or without m..... 
My bad again??? Coz red of pain never comes with a warning. Neither does the question that demands answers to my whys. Why do I exist. Been through the web of relation and love equation. From the daughter, sister, friend to a lover. From the non existent dream to just dying is illegal. Whys have never benn satiated. And I  .... Today think. .. Maybe I have a reason. So I want to write a letter. A letter to me... 
Hi, 
You are yet to be used... For the greatest reason yet...the reason with rules defined by unonown faces . You are yet to use the full time subscribtion to pain. 
You are a human after all. 
I want to write a letter. For no one to read. 
Let it burn into ashes and 
Dissapear.

Hello there.
How are you all doing?
Lockdown is giving me anxiety. Are u too facing some issues as such, or its just me?
How should I keep myself calm... 

Anxiety

My husband always says I said something that I didn't or he will say are you really this stupid. Or your talking makes my brain hurt. He says this in front of the kids or he will say "Sam ( our 11 yr old daughter) are you recording what your mom is saying or did you hear that"? Tonight he said that I was mumbling about what he watched on tv the night before while I was at a concert with the kids. I just turned the TV on for the light as the room was dark and he starts throwing a fit over what he thinks he heard

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