Hello 
I am writing for the first time so please correct me if I am wrong. 
I am not feeling good. I am sad and hurt. And the reason is that I thought the person I cherished and value the most does value me and respect me but I was wrong that person just kicked out me from his life. Without any reason.I considered that person as my best friend but that guy judged me and called me ugly I know I should have left him and never looked back but I grew so attached that now it's hurting me a lot. I am feeling more sad by realizing the fact that he doesn't even care and here I am feeling sad and lonely I think he didn't even considered me as his friend I was just a last option as he always said and I made him my priority. I know I should be angry but all that I feel is sadness. 

Oh no dont be so sad . Okah ?! Just try to distract your thoughts.  N try to make more friends. Like try  texting other ppl .it might help .

I have been friend with a guy since 3 years. We were very good friends untill last month when we were drinking and having fun. 
He was sad so we went to our garden. He was crying so I hugged him, he hugged me back. He was almost going to kiss me near my ears and I didn't feel comfortable so I backed down. I thought I must be mistaken so hugged him back, at that point I could feel he had a boner and he was pressing it against me. I got super uncomfortable and confused so I stopped hugging him and went back with everybody. This all had happened in a duration of 45 seconds. I didn't know what should I do. I couldn't process if it has really happened or not. After 10-15 minutes he asked me to sit with him in the room and I could not say NO, he locked the door. I was scared and confused and in shock. I didn't know what to do. But in the room he didn't do anything, we talked. But I was not in a state that I could think anything else. All my friends and my boyfriend was in the drawing room, they all came in the romm where me and that friend was sitting. Then we all slept.
I didn't tell this to anyone till 2 weeks then I told my boyfriend, he got angry and had a fight with that guy, which I never wanted. I just wanted to tell that guy that what he did was wrong. Now things hav got complicated. I feel I have ruined all my friendship. I think I should not have told this to anyone.
Nothing can go back to the way it was.

Harassment

When my relationship started I didn’t know that the guy i was dating was already in another relationship. But after I found out he chose me over her (they were together for 2yrs) I didn’t feel right. I still continued to be with him as I did have feelings for him.. with time he changed and loves me soo much. He does everything a girl could ask for. He’s super caring but a little less understanding but I don’t blame him cause he comes from a background of pple with conservative mentality. 
So my point here is that sometimes I’m not able to forget what he did to me in those first 4 months of our relationship. Things were hidden from me, he used to go see her almost everyday , they were in a physical relationship then as well, he texted him ILY and i only want you when I was there 😞 ... he gave me an explanation for his texts and said **she would’ve cut her wrist etc etc just coz of that i kept on dealing with her bullshit** idk what’s the truth and i never will ! He had her pictures in his phone even after they broke up and he “chose” me. I made him delete those, he didn’t delete them himself. Things got toxic in our first year together. Now it’s been 2 years with him and the though of the past still occurs and I can’t even talk to him cause he’ll say “tu kbhi nhi bhul skti kya ?! Mai kitna bhi kuchh karlu tere liye kitna hi pyaar krlu firbhi nhi bhul skti ?” 

Frustration


#13..........Those three days of invigilation were super boring for me. The first day I survived the boredom, the next day too was kinda okay but then at night I couldn't sleep and was even tired scrolling through the social media. I saw the time it was 11pm, I tried calling few of my friends, none picked up. I was blankly looking at the ceiling when I thought of calling Mr. A up. But then again I was overthinking if he would like me calling him up at this time or not. After 15 - 20 mins. In an impulse I called him up. He picked up the call to my surprise and was very happy to hear me after so long. After couple of minutes talking with him I realised he wasn't sober. He talked to me like he had never. He was saying his secrets most of them embarassing and funny, and he also talked about how his ex cheated on him. I was listening to him patiently. It was fun to see this side of him. He said one thing about me that I never thought he would say. He said he really liked the dress I wore to my freshers and that I was looking beautiful that day but then he said he was also feeling jealous when he saw my pic with my date. I was giggling with happiness when he said this. He requested me to click a pic with him to keeping my head on his shoulders. I know he was drunk but then I said yes..........(to be continued)



3am Thoughts

So we are bestfriends for 2and half years  .we share everything we look up for each other chat text . And catch up . We looked out our breakups (with other persons ) ND everything  we supported and we have been there for each other . During 2021 we often became more closure and we hanged out quite more times than usual in a month . So we came to one point that we like each other we share some similarities.  And we decided to jump our tag to relationship  ahh it went cool for 3-4 months he used to call me baby  and wife I thought everything  is going cool .so for the past few weeks we became more busier and also we are in long distance relationship  so communication became harder and putting time to each other became harder one fine day he told me let's break up its not going to work and u never set to me . And it's hard to me to digest this cause I thought  everything with him  but now what happening around me . Am I that much sadistic hoping and pleasing him to stay in my life because am not reading to leave him at any cost . I want him badly 

Breakup

I just broke off with a guy I am in love with
This boy has been so kind and sweet to me
It was all merry until my feelings started overwhelming me
I felt like i was losing control and I had to end things with him
He is avoidant and wouldn't have such conversations with me
He said he just wasn't ready for a relationship
I couldn't hang around anymore since i didn't what to expect

shit it hurts😭 this is the first time I've actually fallen in love with every part of a person
and now its over
he's gone
I'm just crying everyday
i miss him so bad
i want to be in his arms😭
he was my safe haven
he makes me feel so safe and cared for
I'm shattered

My boyfriend and I want to get married after dating for almost 10 (on and off) but parents are making me choose between him and them. There is absolutely no problem with regarding anything just because he is my boyfriend they don’t want him . 

Love

How to get ove someone who made you feel special once and now behaving like you mean nothing to them

Sad
I love my bf a lot... But in the past few days he has been acting different... Doesn't want to talk to me for long... Whenever I call him(after working hrs) his phone is most of the time busy and then he receives the call and when I ask him if he is busy he denies but I can make out just keeps that other person on hold and talks to me for a while and then brings up something related to my schedule uk like oh did you do this? Or are you done with this and blah blah... So I act like I recall it I be like oh yeah I forgot about it and then I hung up the call but then when I call him within next half a min it's again busy... He never feels excited or never asks about anything, if I have got a new parcel and I send him the picture then he just leaves me on seen and over call as well never asks about it even if a month has passed by this behavior really annoys me. He is excited only when I visit place his and of course I get this vibe that oh he loves me only sex... But then he is so sweet at that time I start feeling no he is the one... But then again that sweet behavior is just for few days... I don't have any reason to point out what is going wrong because we connect over call everyday at night... We don't exchange msgs because he doesn't enjoying msging so much but that annoys me coz I feel disconnected for all day long and when we talk at night feels like pushing it... Like literally we have started having awkward silence while talking and earlier it was not like that 

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