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@jiswanath

Hello,
Hope, everyone is safe and healthy. This is first time I am writing here about my thoughts. Have lots of thing to share. Feeling very low today, my heart is slowly sinking. I am an HR by profession but I always feel, I don’t have skill set to compete with other HR. Don’t have confidence to crack any job interview. Whenever, I think about my career, I can’t see myself doing anything significant in my life. Very quickly, I get scared of everything and start to panic. I always run away from the problems/difficulties rather than facing them. I always try to avoid them. I am the eldest Son of my family and have lots of responsibilities financially but I am clueless about how to move forward in my life. I always think of quitting my job and do something else but I have no Idea, what is that something else is. I get bored of everything. I think of doing business, opening my own HR Consultancies, start my Youtube Channel, Start a breakfast Centre etc. But, nothing lasts more than a day in my thought and the next day, I am again at the same place. I am very selfish by nature and calls my friends only when I am in need of something. Never valued a true friendship. My only motto is earning lots of money in life. I am married but at times in Depression, I think, I should leave everything job/family/home behind and go to a remote place where nobody knows me.
I am blessed with a very loving wife and parents and siblings who always supports me but I think of leaving them just to run away from the problems. It has been 5 years now that I am married but don’t have a child. Every month, I see the disappointment and sorrow on our faces of failing again and again but we both (my wife and I) always try to hide this feelings. Don’t know what to do…

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Arabinda @auro

Hi @jiswanath, I hope this helps.

Reasons to live:

1: We would miss you.
2: It’s worth it to be alive.
3: It does get better, believe it or not it will eventually get better.
4: There’s so much you would miss out on doing.
5: You are worth it don’t let anyone, even yourself tell you otherwise.
6: God made you for a reason, you have a purpose.
7: There is always a reason to like you may not know it right now, but there’s always a reason to live.
8: So many people care about you.
10: You are amazing
11: I don’t even know you and I love you.
12: I don’t even know you and I care about you.
13: There are plenty of other people that love you.
14: There are plenty of people that care about you.
15: God loves you.
16: God cares about you.
17: Sometimes will be really tough, but it will just make you a stronger person.
18: What about all the things you’ve always wanted to do? What about all the things you’ve planned, but never got around to doing? You can’t do them if your dead.
19: I want you to be alive.
20: People care about you, they are about you even more than you know it.
21: You won’t be able to listen to music if you die.
22: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite song if you die.
23: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite singer if you die.
24: You’ll never be able to listen to your favorite rapper if you die.
25: listening to really loud music.
26: Killing yourself is never worth it, you’ll hit both yourself and the people who care about you.
27: There are so many people that would miss you including me.
28: You’re preventing a future generation, your kids, from even being born.
29: You are Gorgeous.
30: Someone out there loves you.
31: How do you think your family would feel? Would it improve your life if you die?
32: Proving people wrong with your success.
33: Watching the jerks that doubted you fail at life.
34: You’ll never have the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day.
35: You’ll never have the feeling of waking into a cold building on a hot day.
36: Being stupid in public just because you can.
37: Helping other people.
38: You have a future to live for.
39: Being alive is just real good.
40: Not being alive is just really bad.
41: Finding your soulmate.
42: All Nighters.
43: Sleeping in all day.
44: You can look back at your self later in you life and be glad you didn’t commit suicide.
45: Nobody will ever be like you.
46: Your Unique.
47: Puppies.
48: Puppy Kisses
49: Netflix.
50: Decorating the Christmas tree.
51: The kind of dreams that wake you up and you can’t stop smiling.
52: Breakfast in bed.
53: New Clothes.
54: New Shoes.
55: New books by your favorite authors.
56: Sunrises and Sunsets.
57: Friends.
58: The Ocean.
59: Sunlight that is warm on your back but not too hot.
60: Your Family.
61: Inside Jokes.
62: Birthdays.
63: Christmas.
64: Family Traditions.
65: The taste of your favorite food.
66: Watching your favorite tv show.
67: Watching your favorite Movie.
68: The adventure of going somewhere new.
69: The ability to persue what ever you choose ( there are over 7 billion people on Earth, don’t be afraid to be you )
70: To earn money and rewards.
71: You can always flip your life around.
72: To find the perfect job of career.
73: Pizza.
74: Kittens.
75: New Haircuts
76: Awkward moments you can look back to and laugh.
77: God is Good.
78: The world needs you.
79: Roller Coasters.
80: Showers.
81: Cake.
82: Growing old.
83: Growing old with the person you love.
84: Singing.
85: Sleeping.
86: Ice Cream.
87: Eating warm cookies straight out the oven.
88: Food in general.
89: Movie nights.
90: Candy.
91: Popcorn.
92: Daydreaming.
93: The happy moments.
94: Halloween
95: Sleepovers.
96: Parties.
97: Having a good personality.
98: Making people happy.
99: Bonfires.
100: Sitting on rooftops.
101: Going on vacation.
102: Hearing crazy stories
103:Telling crazy stories.
104: Treehouses
105: Starbucks
106: You’ve changed someone’s live.
107: If you end your life, you’re stopping yourself from achieving great things.
108: Everyone has a talent including you.
109: Eating crazy food.
110:Hanging out with your friends.
111: Nobody can ever replace you.
112: You have so much to live for.
113: Your dreams need some fulfilling to do.
114: Living life to the fullest.
115: Heck, I would miss you like crazy.
116: Your family and friends would be devastated if you died.
117: Someone out there is constantly praying to meet someone like you.
118: Your future kids will never come to existence of you die right now.
119: You could save someone’s life.
120: You are too beautiful to disappear.
121: You are bigger than any of your problems.
122: You are never alone in this struggle.
123: Tomorrow is another day, please be there to see it.
124: You are worth more than you think.
125: But, the final and most important one is, just, being able to experience life. Because even if your life doesn’t seem so great right now, anything could happen.

God bless you <3

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Drishti Gupta @drishtigupt...

Hi @auro, thank you so much for sharing this response here with us!❤️ I don’t think it could have been written in a better manner. Kudos to you! :)

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Arabinda @auro

You too @drishti. You are doing an amazing job with nowandme. @jiswanath waiting to hear from you soon :)

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Drishti Gupta @drishtigupt...

Thank you so much @auro, you just made my day :)

@jiswanath

Hey Auro,
Thank You so much for such an encouraging message in a very simple way. Agree with Dristigupta that it couldn’t have been a better way to explain why it’s worth living. Thanks for your time for writing somany things. You are a lovely person. Thanks

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Arabinda @auro

You are welcome :)

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Anonymous

Many people do not have a true calling and passion in their lives. Many even hate their jobs and waste their time making money to buy things they do not need. Analyse yourself. Why did you get into HR? Did you love it at some point? What has changed? Focus on any small things you like about it. Maybe you would like to pursue something else? Maybe studying something else too? Career changes can be painful but not impossible.

Making money is a priority of course but that can’t be your only life goal. You will be depressed and unfulfilled. Find happiness in small things, some good things are also free.

On the marriage; it is good you have been in a long relationship. Have you been to a doctor? You need to try to understand what is causing the issue. Perhaps one of you is infertile? Would you be willing to adopt? What would bring you joy in life?

Think about your life, talk to your wife, make decisions and be happy with your choices.

Take care!

@jiswanath

Thanks for your reply. Yes, we have consulted 3 doctors so far but none of them could find any problem. They say everything is normal.
About my career, I am still not able to understand why I choose HR. Knowing the current situation, I was about to quit my job but somehow survived. Now, I am focusing on my job and doing fine. But, I know my mood very well. I won’t be surprised if it swings again. My only problem is my lack of confidence.

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Anonymous

Me again - I heard about people that get so stressed about wanting to conceive that inn fact this eliminates any chances. You both need to kind of forget about it and focus on other nice things and maybe at some point you can be surprised by the results. Even if HR is not ideal maybe try to branch into something else within that field…I think there are several career paths for HR people not only the general recruiting gig. It helps being born confident but it is also something you can develop.

@jiswanath

Thank You.

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