Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hello guys
Actually I m facing a problem which is like self doubt nd i don’t know what is it .
Let me share you which I m facing …
Actually I am a student of professional exams like CA
Nd in my starting days when I joined my classes nd all so I was like full crazy no self doubt flirting Krna nd all i know uski wjh se bhot log judge krte honge nd i know that at that point of time bhi bt mujhe kisi ße fark ni padta tha nd i was sometime rude also like kisi ko no bolna hai toh muh pr no bolna not interested wgrh bolna preety cool nd in short I was happy fr mere 4 dost bne jinme se 3 was my closest nd 1 was my gf nd fr sabse phle Mera brkup hua
Then baaki 3 dosto ne kaafi support kiya mujhe woh bndi thoda sa glt thi nd they all know this mujhe hi baad mai pta chla tha so us point pr bhi i was like koi ni mere dost toh mere sath khade hai bt fr unme se ek bndi k chkr mai lg gya so contact mera almost khtm ho ho gya fr baaki jbse exam nikla hai inka literally bro exam result aane k next day se hi they were totally change
Asa ni hai ki inke result se i was not happy actually I m too much happy ki kisi ka toh nikla apne group Mai nd fr dheere dheere inhone contact bilkul hi Kam kr diya nd abhi msg aaya Inka kisi kaam k liye nd literally seedhe kaam bola ye krde nd bda sweet bnke i don’t know why jaisa mai starting mai tha Maine bol Diya sorry I can’t do this not much interested in your work nd you mtlb i know I was rude bt mujhe ni pta shi kiya ya ni bt kh diya

Mtlb literally abhi pure 3 se 4 month ho gye bro ye tk ni pucha ki jinda hu ya mr gya nd apni side se call msg kro toh 2 3 din baad reply dete story status sb lg rhe the bs msg nahi kr skte na call pic kr skte bze ek level aage ho gye hai na mere se
Itna jada dimg khrb ho rha na literally pichle month se toh kch jada hi is year maine kitne relations khoye hai na only i know jinse mai itna jada close tha na mind and heart se ki kya hi bolu nd it breaks me all
Now ab toh bs ye mn kr rha ki bro jaane de sb matlabhi h just ab kisi ko mt bna dost kisi ko faida mt uthane de mtlb bhyi literally
Or inme se toh ek asa bhi h Jo kaafi long distance mai rhta tha nd uske family mai kisi ki health condition kuch jada hi khrb thi almost 1 month woh hospital mai tha uska family member nd i was the person jo usko roj moral support deta tha nd usko bola tha if you want na toh mere ko kbhi bhi call or MSG kr besk aadhi raat ko i m with you so bs stress mt liyo mai hu na nd ye sb Kiya unhone mtlb shit yrr khud pr gussa aa rha itna chutiya q bn jaata bhai tu