Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hello everyone!!
Just want to vent :)

Last year, I lost my uncle who I loved dearly. It has been a very hard time for me and my whole family. I still can’t look at his pictures without tears in my eyes. Whenever someone mentions him or about the things he wanted, honestly, I cry. It just hurts knowing that someone who used to live in the same house, talked to you so lovingly, bought you whatever you needed and never missed a chance to bring happiness into your life can now never be there anymore and can never do anything anymore. Currently I’m staying at home where he lived with my grandparents and other family members and trust me it’s hard going through everyday missing someone’s presence.💔 I still find glimpses of him all around the house and the street. Many things remind me of him. I just miss him a lot.

Now this year, doctors are saying that we might lose my grandmother by the end of this year or maybe earlier. I’m just pissed now. I mean why God? Why are you doing this to us? She was the most active person even in old age just a year back. Now you made her condition that unstable that people are counting her days? And wasn’t taking my uncle enough for you?

Now last night, I got a call from my friend. She wasn’t able to speak properly because she’s sick. She told me to meet her as soon as possible because she thinks that “uske din Kam bache hn” (few days are left for her). I scolded her and shut her up because I didn’t want her to get discouraged like that. She told me about her condition and I have been pretty scared for her since then because the situation can turn out to be worse than it seems. I am really helpless as I’m out of town. I just wanna go meet her and hug her 😭. She went for tests and I wish her test results to be positive.

Don’t you think God is playing with me?
I am tired of all this
I don’t want to lose anyone 🙂

Just pray for everything to get better:)