Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Hello everyone,

Almost a year ago I came to this site to get advice on dating and sharing my fears about that. Back than I was in a very dark place I just wanted it to end at in point but life is nice sometimes and I met a girl which changed everything we both were in a dark place and help each other out of there. That was over 9 months ago and now we’re officially in a relationship since 5 months. We had our ups and downs but we always managed to work on it and get everything back on track.

I‘m happier than ever but sometimes I feel like I have no energy left after seeing her all weekend and I just wanna have a gaming session or do some work at home. Sometimes I stay awake till 4 in the morning just to satisfy this need. I feel really weird about that I am normally really in control of myself I quit smoking without any problems and also change to a strict diet without any problems my discipline is good I would say. But this time I just can’t control myself I pretty much do it every Sunday when I get home till now it hasn’t effect anything but I wanna get a better job soon and I need all my energy for that since I quit school and I’m very afraid to go back and lern something in theory and not by doing it.

I know my girlfriend I will support me no matter what I wanna do but I’m afraid that I will not give her enough time which is always a problem she is always comparing us to her sister and her boyfriend they see each other all week because they are both students. I only have time on weekends since I work 10 - 12 hours a day.

What should I do I am really confused about this whole thing I never was in a relationship and I’m at my wit‘s end.

Thanks for reading