He has been home for 5 days and we barely talked. Just few texts. Should I call him? 🥺 he never picked up my call when he is at home. But I so wanna talk, idk what to do. 

So sorry for that. But mine will be back after one day so we will have a talk, it's just that he is home and he never talk much when he is home 🙄

Frustration

I still remember the night he told me that he didn't want me anymore. He made it sound like it was Nothing for him, for me. Nothing. When I tried sorting things out he just brushed me off and simply said this cannot happen and left me. I was so much anxious and heartbroken for so many days.. My emotional pain got converted into physical pain.. I was hopeless and I used to cry for hours.. I used to cry in the middle of the nights.. I never got my closure.. Never knew exactly what happened to me.. Was i being taken advantage of this whole time??.. I don't understand how can people be so heartless.. Promising someone the whole world, feeding them on lies for so many months and then leaving them out in the cold.. In the middle of nowhere.. Without even considering the other person worthy of an explanation.. Why don't they understand that some of us are really vulnerable with our fragile little hearts.. We don't see manipulation coming.. Anyways.. The thing is that I was heartbroken I still I am but now I am much better and I don't expect him to come back now.. May none of you have to go through such heartbreak..love you all. 

Breakup

How do I stop loving someone or stop missing someone...  I know he will never understand me no matter how much I try.. he stopped loving me.. because I couldn't change my personality and my entire self as per his choice.. a few years back, when we cam in relationship.. he wanted to change my dressing style, and everything... even my way of walking.. I was so madly in love that I agreed to all of it, but with time I realized that I was not happy, although I still loved him.
I know that even after so much efforts to be his favorite, he stopped loving me one day.. I just don't know how to put my thoughts into words. I just want to stop loving him.. and start loving myself now. live my life on my own terms.. I just need to figure out the HOW maybe

Love

My first crush happened 11 years ago and after that I met him after 8 years we interacted and I got to know he is in relationship, it broke me a little but then I continued with my life after few months he said he wants to breakup with his gf as she is possessive and very dominating he started sharing his feelings with me eventually we fell in love its been 3 yrs wat we have is unstable because according to him his gf is very clingy and at one point I got so frustrated I left him totally with his gf and started meeting other people and knowing them but I just couldn't feel for anyone the way I felt for him and parted my ways with another guy, I just cannot get him out of my mind and am controlling myself from talking to him I miss him and cry for him but couldn't help and now things have taken turn in a manner where he wants me but knows he can't cling and hold me as he said if she wants to marry me I will marry her.. All I know is he loves me and I m sure about it, but he is just letting me go I can stay if I want to but eventually we will split and I can't be his side chic i want to be his whole.. But if being with her is what's best for him I will be more than happy for him, he thinks she can take care of his family and that's just the reason why he is ready to get married to her.. Sometimes I feel like running back to him but than I again remember that he is officially with someone else and it takes myself a little everyday.. Why did we met again after so many years and why did we fell for each other what did this thought me,except of pain and hurt


Relationships

I met this boy online 3 years ago and we soon became very good friends.  Eventually around in 8-9 months ago we had a fight and then we didn't talk for the next six months. I'll be honest these six months felt like a relief to me  because i felt he was actually too toxic for me, but i still missed him sometimes. On the other hand he became very miserable, his mental health ,his marks ,his career choices all started degrading. when i got to know, so just out of pity and just for the sake of the friendship, i came back , and i do see improvement in him. But I don't feel nice anymore, I don't want to stay but then i again think of how bad his condition was and then i change my mind. What should I do?( also disclaimer i don't like him like him and never did. we always had the sibling energy so please don't go in that direction)

I wanna share something really personal . it’s something that I can’t put it in words but I’ll try my best it’s just I’ve been fight with myself for way too long and suffering silently and it never really changes . It all happened because of my messed up lifestyle and losing self esteem during covid I had no confidence in me . So basically, I have an internet friend we have never met in real life . We started as friends but some how we became important in our regular routine. It’s like I couldn’t even sleep most nights if he wouldn’t be there on call . Just because he was always there I never could talk about other boys . Even if he was not my boyfriend he would shame me . At times I got weak and felt lonely as hell and decided to be his online gf since he was always there for me . There were times (in short) I’ve had mad anxiety I was treated like shit by my ex and at those times I used to have loads of health anxiety. He was the only person there in those days although I never met him I always treated him like a real person . He have shamed me every month since a year ( about to be ) . Now lately he started college and he is doing well without me and I haven’t been able to accept I keep crying spamming him for what ?? At the end he calls me a slut for my past and I never ever cheated on anyone . all I want is a good relationship and a good boyfriend I just want to block him and forget him and be in peace but again he was also there for me at difficult times I can’t be so selfish right ? I genuinely need help I think I’m ruining my youth !!

Anxiety

Hi... I've been thinking about this for a long time .... There's this guy who made me feel like he cares for me. That is only when we are in person. But he rarely initiate chatting when we are apart. But if I do, he plays along well. There had been instances I really felt cared for because of his affectionate nature. But im not at all sure whether he's just being nice , or having feelings for me or playing me. I feel like he's too smart for me anyway. And now that he has been selected for many golden opportunities all around the globe I feel like he's drifting away with all the work that has to be done. I don't want to bother him , nor do I want to be someone who puts on more weight on his shoulders, or someone who drags him down.But I can't get him out of my mind sometimes and it makes my days go to waste. Now that he's on his road to success I feel like he has chosen to ignore me. Because he really does. He didn't even look at me for the past week. And I feel bad. I don't know whether I should just let him go. Or hold on until he comes back after the busy days of his. 

If somebody knows a way to get a person out of their mind , please do tell me. I don't want to put my future at risk just because a guy was occupying my mind. 

 Thank you in advance. 

One Sided Love

My boyfriend of 5 years is in another state. It's been hard and I have been feeling distant for a while. I'm super insecure and I talked to him about it. On one occasion he said a co worker would flirt with him and he went out with her and his friend. He told me this years later because he felt guilty after finding out that one of my coworkers had a thing for me. He said we had been on bad terms when he left her in his words "treat him better" than I was. He's usually really straightforward. I guess I never trust him because he's always shown me that he's friendly with everyone. Today I was on social media and saw that he had friended someone I have never met. Someone's from where he's staying at. I asked him about it and he said his cousin was the one who did it. I td him he was lying and that I wanted him to remove her. He just blew me off said I'm overreacting and said he's never cheated. So that I should trust him, that he didn't want to deal with my insecurities. He then said I love you I can't with this rn I work. I honestly don't know what to do.


Boyfriend

I met a guy last December who kind of fall in love at first sight with me.. his whole group made things up.. and made me go out and start talking with him.. at that time I was in a phase of NO relationship or love at all.. 6 months he was really sweet… and followed me everywhere.. and after six months when I thought of considering him.. (still no feelings) he started acting weird .. and saw his real face.. tried to abuse me in public and also tried to slap me in public.. but by then day by day I was so attached to him.. 
then it was on off kindo of thing between us. 

After our last talk (fight) he deleted my number today.. and that pinched me alot.. because I was happy atleast I could see his dp in WhatsApp.. and he was checking my status.. today I called him.. to talk.. he blocked me from everywhere.. and I am feeling so so bad.. also after our last fight already it was really tough for me to do anything. I want him back. But kind off not too. I don’t know I am confused.

I am suffering from anxiety attacks too.

Need someone to talk.
What should I do?

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