He calls me mentally ill in every fight. He says I've been mentally disturbed since the first day he's met me and because of my silly personality no one really loves me or wants to be friends with me and I should be thankful to him for sticking around with me for so many years. 



This is going to be toxic I'm telling you .... Either make him understand that we both should thankful and supportive to each other or you should end this !!

3am Thoughts

What's that one thing you can die for?

What's that one thing you are living for ?



Life

Hey there
It's for everyone here
If you ever feel low
Or going through something and feel lonely
I am here for you, I will listen to you
So don't get upset
Feel free to message me

“I miss you” probably u won’t hear that again 

I cant take care of myself I need to find a husband to take care of me...
Also my x friend called police on me for harassing him... is our friendship over?

I think i can never be loved and validated by anyone like my own parents just neglected my presence for all these years i got no friends cause i was bullied by some of my friends which just left me traumatized for ever. I was abused by my cousins when i was just a kid and it had me built boundaries for boys n even when i dated one whom i loved the most he apparently left me and other boy when i was in a phase off moving on abused me .I have witnessed a traumatized childhood since birth like my parents have a unhealthy relationship and my father is very abusive and he can't hold back his anger so he have always beaten me up for even a slightest sin i did or for nothing. All these years i just wanted to be heard and understood by others i don't need sympathy of anyone and i don't want anyone to feel pity about me all i need is affection which i been craving for like forever. It's a curse to live like this, i just feel too lonely most of the days and i end up overthinking about hell alot of things i wanna make it stop but nothing is in my hand. I feel like dating sometimes even few people approach me but then i don't want to regret everything like i did in the past and good people are so hard to find. I think i gonna probably die alone like this any time sooner.

Anxiety

I can’t do this anymore. Nothing is working out. Everyday is stress, everyday is a let down. This is too much for me to take. Something is wrong with everything and when I thought about it I realised I was the wrong thing in this world. Nothing brings me happiness, nothing makes sense anymore. I wanna leave everything and everyone behind and go to the mountains with no ties to anything or anyone. I’m not happy and I don’t know what will bring me happiness

Depression

Why i am so hypersexual and feel horn* most of the times whether I am doing my work or not and tbh i have no girlfriend and no friend with whom i can be fwb so i ended up with masturbatio* all the time and regret after that wtf is wrong yrr I am now so sexually frustrated  

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