Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

It’s making me boil and losing my mind, due to the Covid situation I couldn’t see my partner for more than a year now, and I feel my partner is drifting a part, and also I couldn’t find a new job for myself, I couldn’t change my situation at all

i am in a completely same boat as you and i couldn’t meet the person i loved for an year and when i was about to meet her she found someone else few 3 weeks before we could finally meet , we still made contact and stayed in touch until last month when we finally lose contact and ever since that we are drifting apart and trust me i feel what you are going through and the world is going to make everything alright sooner or later just don’t give up, if you wish you want to talk about in detail, I am all ears sometimes talking about things in detail makes us feel better.

Yes I am sorry to hear that, life is full of surprises, when I first met my partner I felt amazing we had one beautiful year togetehr even away we always talk and be there for eachother, even now my partner still contacts me everyday and tells me I love you, but thé behaving and the way of speaking is completely different from it used to be, I was working in tourism industry, I was happy and optimistic, I always had a plan for my life, until this bloody virus came and destroyed me, when I try to be strong I feel angry and want to be alone. Than I explode crying alone, I deleted all my social Média, i lost contact with friends and I can’t tell my family about abaythong which makes it vu far harder 😩
We try to be strong but at the end we are humans

i completely get it and i am glad he’s there for you maybe he’s going through some stuff on his own and that’s why you feel he’s behaviour changed or maybe because you are edgy and anxious and frustrated that makes you overthink everything that’s happening around you and i am just trying to see things from a different point of view

If you can and don’t mind try talking to him about the way you feel about the change in his behaviour and dynamics and I am sure if he feels the same way for you he will make you understand his side and calm you down and support you as much as he can

I am always here if you wanna rant to anyone or talk to , just reply to this message and you will find me replying to you as soon as possible ♥️

Stay strong i know it’s easier said than done but as a human we know that change is the only constant and we have to somehow accept the changes and look forward to the future

Soon you will find the happiness you deserve and want till then we need to somehow live the lows cause if we don’t feel the low we wouldn’t be able to feel the high and appreciate the high and happiness when we finally get it🥰

You are absolutely right! I hope things get to the best with you too! You made me feel better today thank you very much
Please if you want to talk to me more about it I am ready to listen and try to help 😊

I don’t know if talking will help me cause I can’t shut up when I start to talk about me and her and I guess no matter how much I talk I will always be bothered that we aren’t together anymore

But thank you so much for helping and making me feel of some worth

Always here to be of any assistance i can be

You know this is the first time I talk to anyone about this relationship, I have never complained! If you want to talk I’m happy to listen 😊

its just that i feel sad because i feel its because of me things went this way , for a whole year she kept asking me why dont you wanna be in a relationship with me , its not like i didn’t love her but i was scared of relationship because every relationship i saw of others eventually breaks and i loved her too much to let her go away and become like we hate each other,

the last she asked me was 2 days ago before she went on a date with cause i was back at home and she started to feel for that person and she eventually decided to choose him over me and end what we were but we were still in touch till April until she decided to just stop talking and today she returned few items to me since I am going back home and it makes me feel like this is the final nail in the coffin for what we were.

But i am still gonna care the same way for her, and be there the same way i was for her cause i care and love her deeply and a part of me will always feel for her

So basically you didn’t want to be in relationship with her ?

i wanted to but i am scared of relationships label, we did everything people do in relationship.
her friends and therapist everyone said to her that you are in a relationship but just haven’t labelled yourselves.

I am scared of the let gos and goobyes, that’s the reason I don’t like forming a close bond with anyone cause it eventually breaks apart one day and all I am left is with sadness and miseries.This happens everytime I get close to someone but I don’t know but when i was getting close to her it felt like home and that this bond will stay forever no matter how many hardships come and go

I understand you feelings, may be you should try talk to her and explain, if she has feelings she will understand! I understand because I have gone through same situation, if you think you can have a healthy conversation about it just go for it!

but she’s dating a new person i know since March end and i guess i should let her be happy with him as she has been drifting apart since April and if she’s happy with him i shouldn’t bother her and if we were ever meant to be together and still are then our paths will cross again someday

I can see, i think you should push your self a little bit and try to move on, try to get away of anything that reminds you of her, as you said if she is meant to be yours she will be! But also we have always to look for happiness and peace of mind! Wish you all the best and hope you get strength to get over it!

i am trying but its very hard to move on and forget her when you have feelings and you still care for her safety and well being more than your own.but i am gonna try be hopeful and try to move on and hope life has something good planned for me

I pray for you everything gets easier! Just I’d t lose hope 🙏

thank you

I have always been an optimistic person, I was born in mountains in poor area, I have studied hard and faced many hard situations but I never felt weaker than now

I can understand but you know life is uncertain …just focus on learning

Thank you 🙏
I am trying my best! Hopefully things will improve

I m with you bro

Thank you very much I really appreciate it! If you want to talk I am here too 🙏