Having been raised in a small town, things like dating and romance were not exactly encouraged and so I refrained myself a lot. I still fell for someone in high school but he didn’t feel the same way, he approached me later on but I had already moved on. Later on, I fell for a colleague and this guy isn’t ready for relationships and we are still best friends. And most recently, I met someone over arranged marriage set up and it was the same story all over again with the additional complexity of this guy being a total asshole. Also, I fell for him quite fast and I had a lot of trouble understanding this and couldn’t express it to him early on - I guess love is actually blind. Having said this, I’ve been approached by a few but I didn’t feel the same way about them. Only now, I have realized that I should be more open to exploring this side of me. I am seeing this guy now in an arranged marriage setup but I am not sure how I feel about him because I don’t know if I am over the last guy yet (It has only been a month since he ghosted me). This new guy is really nice but I’m having trouble collecting my emotions as I am a very sensitive and sentimental sort of person. Should I be open about what I have been through to the new guy? Also, how can we fall for someone so fast? It still worries me and I have a lot of trouble processing and understanding all these emotions.