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3am Thoughts

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Intro

Kinda lonely and need a friend to talk to.
Anyone up for a chat about their day n stuff?

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I can't write an entrance exam anymore..i almost killed the happy me preparing for neet UG and now I'm already tensed..i will have to compete again with the same lakhs of people with whom I had already competed..I'm scared of putting myself through that pressure again..it's going to be soo hard for me coz now I'm really sensitive to anything and everything..i wish life was easy or atleast it was happy..i remember how hard it was back then during my neet UG prep..i almost died crying everyday..and now it's going to be even more harder

So my sister started dating a friend of me and I was completely shattered. He always said I had a good personality and how I was really smart. But he never really liked her. So one day, they both went out to hang out and the next thing I know he fell for my sister. So much so that he was originally a playboy and now he super loyal to her. I felt so betrayed and alone, because I for one, always believed it's always about personality, and never the looks. I never wanted anything to happen between us, but oh my god, when he told me that he fell for her because he misunderstood her and how pretty she is, I felt so bad.  Like, what about me then? And now they are together, and in a consensual relationship and it made me feel really bad about myself. I am just so jealous and annoyed by the fact that she is just so lucky. She gets any guy she wants, she is getting her degree and then is doing something always. Like she goes out, lives her life without any care in the world. I am just so tired of feeling invisible and like a morgue. 

I am a person who's not sure what I want. When it comes to job I cant stay in a place and work. Like infront of pc or laptop working like robots for 8 hours. You will have break time and have to back within that given time. After 5 back to home, eat, rest, sleep then back to work the next day. I wonder most of the time why we human living a robotic life but at the same time I know we have commitments and we have to earn for living. But at the same time I wanna live a life where I can be my own boss. But I enjoy working as an interior architect, at the same time could not handle those 4-5 projects stress. And after trying and trying for vacancies I managed to get customer service job in which I have to travel for 45 mins to work by bike. Its risky to travel by bike but i enjoy working at my new office in which I will be infront of my pc for 8 hours. But my gf is working hard to get me a permanent job at a place since the place Im working right now is under contract term. Now Im confused which one should I go after as the permanent place increments and benefits are better than the place Im working right now. What should I do? Anyone like me? Dont know what they actually want?

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