guys, im so fuked up. now, hearme out. when you get hurt, you feel depressed. when you give out love and dont get it back, then you’re sad, but yeah maybe you could try and grow from it into a much stronger person. but what if you hurt people? what if you had some 3,4 boyfriends in your past and people judge you cuz of that. what if you feel guilty? how can i rise from this? i want to die. i made mistakes. i hurt people. how will i ever love myself again? could you please share your stories here. i beg you, even if it’s anonymous
Ashish Sharma @thatsmeashi...
Hey honey,
Its okay to have relationships. But keep doing the same things is not good.
Did you ever though why did you broke up with every one of them.
I don’t think so.
Have a look at the past and see what was wrong in the last relationship and try not to repeat the same thing in the next.
Let me share you with mine.
So i was in college when i had my 1st relation. We were really good together. We spent hours together sitting in college canteen. I was totally in love with the her. But unfortunately i had to leave Bangalore and then the tuff part started.
Now we were in a long distance relationship. And i was a really short tempered guy. I get annoyed and angry really quick. And once i am angry even i don’t what do i say. And one day we had a fight over a call. And i lost my temper.
That’s it. This is where i lost her. Its been around 8 years and i still regret it. I should not have said those things to her.
And since then i learnt that gussa sab kharab kar deta hai. It ruins everything. And from that day i keep myself calm to every extent i can. I let the other person win everytime.
So again since then i didn’t had any relation or any friends. I was just alone.
But i met this girl and i fell for her after a really long time. We started talking day-nights. Spending time together whenever possible. And we got together. My only weakness is i love unconditionally. So again this time i loved her, and one day i asked for the future commitment. But she said she is not ready for it.
And again i lost my temper. But this time i knew don’t have to say a word. Otherwise things will turn to me.
I am really heartbroken.
But life goes on yr. It never stops. It never waits for you, nor for the person to comeback.
There is nothing you can do about people judging you. But what you can control is you mind. You just have to control your mind and not let others affect you.
That it
Okay. Okay. Calm down.
Fuck what other people say or think about you.
Even I’ve had 3 boyfriends and a little flirting here and there.
And there’s nothing wrong about it. Its my life and its my wish. I choose who i want and i do what I want to.
Cause in the end, they are going to be my stories.
Look, hurting people is common. Its what you do after it. You wanna fix it or no.
That matters.
I didnt hurt anyone on my own.
But if someone hurts me, then I will do anything to defend my feelings and thats not wrong either.
I’ve been abused my last ex time and again. And i never found him guilty about it. Now you see, thats shit.
A part of me will never forgive him but i did rise.
Got rid of him and i made myself stronger.
And its time you do too.
Fuck what people think about you.
You gotta rise from your heartbreaks and forgive yourself for the mistakes you do and learn and grow.
Sending you love ❤️
