Guys I need help. 
One of my friends is really mad at me. I was telling her about my bf/fiancée and she got mad and said I was a bad friend and I knew she had just gone through a break up and how dare I rub my relationship in her face. 
SHE broke up with her bf 4 months ago and has been dating someone new for almost 2 months (he's literally in her phone as Husband too)
What do I do??

 but its like anytime its about her and her new bf she's fine and has moved on, and she only dumped him because she "fell out of love with him" but when it about anyone else she's broken hearted and still hasnt gotten over it etc etc

and she came up to me and asked if i was single so I answer truthfully and then she gets mad

May be she is not happy.. ask her if she is doing fine with the new bf??

She's not your true friend. Friends no matter how hurt they are, will always enjoy things that mean to you. Eg. If i'm jobless and one of my frnd got a job i'd celebrate his fucking job instead of saying how dare you rub your new job at me. 

Cut off your tie from fake friends like this. 

Friends

I am in a relationship with a girl but I still miss my ex. Let’s call my current girlfriend A and ex girlfriend B. A has already informed her parents about me and she wants to get married, B has been trying to get me back and wants to marry but just that I am in a relationship I have been saying no to her but when I see how much effort she has put into fixing the relationship I feel she deserves that chance and fix everything and marry her but at the same time I have constant fear that A will get hurt badly because she also put effort. I feel I should kill myself do that these emotional traumas will get over. I feel if I don’t exist then both of them have to move on their lives and see other people to stay with. I just don’t want to hurt anyone. But it seems like I am going to hurt either one of them.

Breakup

She's scary 

3am Thoughts

Yesterday she broke up with me. I had to let her go  because she asked me to. But I really don't want her to go. Somehow I let her go because if she'll be happy without me means I should have let her go right ?? I cried the whole night. cried myself to sleep @4 am. 
But one thing I can't figure out is, why am I ho**y though ?? My body wants me to have a good s3x to feel something. I don't know why ?? 
Can someone explain?


I want to break up with my gf but she has not done anything wrong. i just don't have feelings for her now like i think she's not the one for me. And now when i think about this, it was a forced relation. It was my mistake that i just got into a relationship with her cuz i was lonely, other than this there is nothing i like about her that much. I don't know what to do. She is such a pure soul but i don't wanna ruin her life.

She is my personal brand of heroin.

I really wanted to write this in my Diary but I can't coz my family has this habit of you know, to put nose in everything (they are great parents)
It's gonna be long i guess still I'll try to explain my heart out in small pieces as much as I can 😅😅
I guess I have to write this in parts 
My one sided  love story -1
So I met her online through quora i remember tab hum dono ko bhi ye doubt tha ki " ye fake account hoga " so to confirm that usne muje apna anonymous insta acc ka ID send Kiya tbh mere khud ka insta account nhi tha so I created with my original name idk why I did this... That night when we had our first conversation on insta voice call I remember it was i guess 2 or 2.5 hr long... Later we started having a small conversations over text sometimes on Voice call... But usne start me he bola tha that she is going to US for her masters I guess she was computer engineer or into cyber security that time... We did flirted with each other... She even told me about the girl she previously loved... I guess woh time like jab hum online mile tab woh like hard time se pass ho rahi thi you know... You know like woh girl ke saath break up them further study ke liye US jana woh pressure then off family se dur jaane ka gum ( she loves her family so much ) I guess woh sab overwhelming tha uss waqt still hum i remember 1 or 2 hrs daily baatein karte the... Woh toh apne passport ke Mumbai bhi aayi thi but hum mile nhi... Woh night jab woh return Gujarat ja rahi thi and luckily mere mom dad bhi uss night ghar nhi the we talked the whole night like till 4 in morning jab woh train se waha pohchi.... 



(App ne hang marna start Kiya hai iss pehle ki ye meri mehnat pe paani Better mai part 2 start karu )😅😅



One Sided Love

I lost a lot in my life a lot I should tell you. Some people due to suicide or else people left me and promised me they won’t ever leave me as a friend but they did. I’ve been on my lowest for the past few years and I’ve this weird side in me that I want to keep a person save no matter what. I lost everything over and over again was used and I’ve gone psycho I hurt people so bad was always rude didn’t give a fuck about anyone cuz I was to scared they would hurt me again. Right now I’m in a relationship with my gf but it’s so unhealthy I’ve controlled her to the point she is suffering aswel. She had lost a few friends in the past but because I don’t want her to leave me I took everything from her. True friendships doesn’t exist in my world and I pushed it on her. We’ve been trying to fix things and it’s been so bad sooo bad but I swore to her that no matter what if she leaves me I would give up on live. She knew I didn’t lie about that so she’s trying her hardest and I’m here still living in the past not knowing what to do if she talks to her friends again. I cared to much to the point it was extremely unhealthy. But I’ve seen everything she still puts up with me she doesn’t even talk to no one just for the sake I don’t worry. But she said she couldn’t do it anymore and that’s when the eye opener came. It happened a week ago and it suddenly hit me that because I’ve been through a lot that’s she doesn’t have to suffer because of that. A lot has happened but for me it’s hard to trust people I can’t just do that but for her sake I will let her do whatever she wants now. But at the same time when I told her she could talk with everyone again she said that it was always about me and she couldn’t just trust me again. So I lashed out yesterday trying to make a plan for her to trust me but she couldn’t do it. The old me is coming up and I hate it. I want to be a better person but I don’t know how to handle it a little harsh word makes me emotional and the old me jumps out and tries to push everything on her with screaming. At this rate idk how we can go on like this. Can someone please tell me how I can deal with everything for example if she talks to a friend and not get jealous and not think she will leave me for them. 

Ps: I have autism and ptsd if someone wants to know

Mood Disorder

I was in a relationship with this girl for 3 years. Now it's been a year since we broke up. But she used to come again and again in my life and leave me alone. In this time she never allowed me to have sex with her. But was ok with kissing and touching her breast and butt. I spoke to it about her but she used to take it lightly and ignore it. She used to talk to me on call text me that let's have sex and all but then when the time use to come she used to refuse. She used to tease me and arouse me and then used to leave me on my own without satisfying me. Because of that i used to get sexually frustrated. I used to get angry at times. I don't know what to do. Is my behaviour normal?

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