Guys I have just one day for my school reunion I'm soo nervous.im confused what to do that day because my crush will be coming .my friends said to be quiet because I'm gonna explode smiling when I see him.they said to be normal but I can't .what should I do?? Oh god 

You should make a reel with that music. Yo bro, Who got you smiling like that?? XD Just live in the moment, You guys are meeting after so long, a conversation will spark up naturally.

One Sided Love

Last year I broke up with my bf Sanju whom I have been dated for 3years. After that i want to focused on study and join library where I met with One of my ex frnd whose name is abhishek and he became my good frnd.one day he proposed me and I couldn't say him No. He knew everything about my past. Sanju is trying hard to keep the things normal and start a fresh friendship,I also keep missing him bt i know we have no future he is belonging from other cast nd my family is very conservative about casts and love marriage. Each and everyday my siblings 
taunt me that i will run away and do married with a lower cast as I am a daughter of priest.  That's why I broke up with sanju  .he loves me so much and also I do. But for my father's prestige and honour I  did that.but the things get complicated 
 jesa Sochi thi wesa hua ni..last week sanju's father died.I try to talk to him but he scold me nd forbid to msg and call.  He said that after death anyone shows sympathy and he don't need it. I want to meet with him  and again start a new friendship.  I am feeling very guilty and sad. I told my present bf Abhishek that I worry about sanju.He get angry with me.. both sanju and abhishek dont want to talk with me..Don’t know what to do. Is it right to patch up with him and broke up with Abhishek. I messed up the things. Feeling very blue and lonely. Don’t decide what to do.

Breakup

I am exhausted of my sadness. I m tired of my pain. I am tired of my thoughts. I am tired of my behavior.* I am tired of me*. I can't handle this. IT'S A REAL PAIN. Suffocating breath, pain in heart, pain in body, tightness in head. I can't handle no more.

Life


last week mei office mei, do colleagues ki Corona se death ho gyi, dono 27-28 saal ke the, Is incident ne mujhe andar tak daraa k rakh diya hai, Life bahut uncertain ho gyi hai, 

Sab log careful Raho, and pray to GOD for everyone.

COVID-19

Is it OK to feel so worthless. When my friends are doing jobs and doing whatever they want in their life enjoying their life. But iam struggling with the preparations for the job...the tonts of family members make even worse for me...
It feels like outdated when u sacrifice so much and still suffering to get wht u deserve....
I sometimes feel like so stressful and anxious. This worthlessness is eating me day by day. My hair volume reduce to an extent I just feel so underconfident all the time this hairfall stress anxiety and worthlessness is gonna do wht with me I don't know....
This worthlessness make me feel ashamed in front of everyone...😔😔😖

Body image

I have been feeling overwhelmed and sad these few weeks. My coping mechanism was really bad. I just get myself distracted with my works at the office and spent my days either sleeping. I don't know what I'm going through exactly. It was too overload. Bad days at work, self insecurities, money problems, and self destructive situations.  My best friend and me wasn't talking for few weeks. I have so much things to talk with but sometimes I couldn't and unable to let it out. I distanced myself away when I saw their responses by the time I told them I was stressed out. Last time, my best friend asked me where I have been missing for weeks. Then, I said I have been stressed out about life and works. Her answers was " you with your stress". I don't know what to say anymore. She just left me on read few days already. My other best friend wasn't talking to me after I said almost the same thing. She just left me on read but she was tweeting about her relationship. I mean I am happy that she have boyfriend already, but don't left me on read, alone here. I may need time for myself, but not being ignored and left me on read days. Sometimes I felt it kinda selfish for me to tell them my bad days because I should be keeping it by my own. I should be able to handle by myself. I should keep things to myself only.  Even they said " I am here if you need me". It kinda dark when nobody checking up on you. Not that I need their attention, but still. Last time , I bursted myself out crying in the car. Then, I'm okay. Yesterday, I cried like shit. I slept just to cope  with sadness. Don't know how to pour out my thoughts so I went here. But anyway I'm okay. But it's okay. Everyone is having bad days. Never mind. It's okay. Sometimes silence is better. 



Insecurity

Headache between nights are worstttt 😣

3am Thoughts

It has been days that I have been feeling stuck, everything around me seems to be falling apart, whether it is my family or my closest of friends. But I can positively say that I have still put myself together everyday and strived to make each day count. I am trying to make things better but I still don't feel happy with anything or anyone. Idk what to do

Is it normal that i want to move to a new city and start a new life.. with completely new people 

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