Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

Growing up, i didnt have my parents by my side because they are in abroad. Being away with your parents is the fucking worst!!! I lived with my 2 brothers and my mothers brother and my gradfather. Me growing up was never easy for me. In my elementary days, when i needed help with school work, i never had someone to teach me, thats why i always got low scores, I didnt have someone to motivate me and every program in school, no ones there for me. I’d be always that kid in the school alone. Im always jealous of my classmates who was with their mother to support them and help them in school works. In high school, still no ones there for me to help me when i needed it. When i got in 10th grade, i realized that no ones been there for me but my self, so i studied very hard to be in the honors list and luckily i passed i was very happy and i told them about it they were happy about it but part of me feels that there is something missing. Every problem that I encountered i was the only one fixing it, if i have a problem i keep it to myself and trusting people with my problems was not on my list. Ive tried to tell my problems to other people but end up getting hurt by the words they say. Last year summer, i was with my parents and i had a breakdown in front of them, i told them how i suffered now being with them they just ignored it and thinks that i was just acting it up. All I wanted was to get the attention they never gave me when i was still a child, Im jealous to other people that they got their attention from their parents.