Got up, dressed up, looked pretty, felt pretty, took pictures,...back to bed. 👀

" Do good, get good. Do bad, get bad."

Self Love

The harsh reality is that no one knows what's deep in my heart....no one knows what kinda person exactly I'm....
I feel uncomfortable expecting the response for my feelings even from my closed ones.
I have a crush who will never ever think of me.He knows that a person like me exists but still its beyond my thinking that I'm expecting him to love me.Its kinda impossible in many ways.Even after knowing all these I love him and want him very badly.As everyone say,if u love someone let them go.I think thats the only option left for me to do which I really don't wanna do.If I take the chance to make a move then I'll become a Cheapo in his eyes.Well,mission impossible.
I tried to get over it.I kinda stopped thinking about him but again it started.I love him.i don't know what to do...

3am Thoughts

My favourite night routine is to just eat my dinner around 7:30-8 so that I have ample amount of time to digest it and go to a nice walk after dinner. Then come back home relax a bit and then sit with my family and chill out with them. I really love this routine and I want to follow this routine everyday but I can’t do that everyday because of the busy schedule.

Healthy Food

Great works are not performed not by strength but by perseverance 🤠🤠

Affirmations

Tired of crying and complaining about my lack of success in the future

Mental Health

I turned down a good job offer because of a gut feelung I felt like moving somewhere else after graduation, then immediately regretted it and asked if they would still consider me for the position. Now I'm waiting for an answer but still don't know what I want


Insecurity

feeling lost 
feels like i am running away from life and every other necessary stuff be it a career, relationship. 
i want to stop this feeling 

Anxious. Like there is a big hole in my stomach. Head hurts. Restless

Is it possible to get addicted to fights in the relationship? 
In my relationship there has been a fight every 10 days.. 
I say something as a joke
He gets angry due to it and says something harsh
I react angrily
Fight escalates so mich that he starts saying he wants to break up
We don't talk for some days
He replies to my stories or some way msgs me again
We argue some more regarding the fight
Then he says he wants me and no more fights in future
Things go back to normal
Atleast for somedays till the cycle repeats. 

So this time when he started being understanding and didn't react to things which I felt he would I just couldn't trust his behavior. Felt like this was the calm before the biggest storm ever. And I was right.. 
Yesterday had a big fight because he said we will meet this weekend but cancelled at the last moment. We haven't seen each other since Feb end. So I got angry. Fought and this time it went too far. 
I don't think things can be mended now
But when  things were good did I instigate a fight? 
Did I want him to fight with me? 
Why did I didn't trust him behavior? 
Am I addicted to fighting with him? 

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