going to sleep. Hope I wake up to a message saying I got the job!

Exhausted

I want to hug someone terribly. I miss hugging them

Lonely

I m feeling devastating,  i feel this most of the time, i m a horrible person i hate myself i cant love anyone. What sort of attitude i have towards myself soo negative..i cant evn love myself hoe will i give love to someone..i m witch..i wish i had died bbefore i was born...what should i do to change myself...evryones hates me..i desreve to be hated.

3am Thoughts

In the family get togethers, I often go a place where no one is and cry, It's a happy moment but then also why I feel like crying at the moment? 
This is not of 1 or 2 moments but everytime!!
*Any psychologist here!?
**People who can relate can answer too

Family

What do you do to not feel suicidal everyday?

Suicidal Ideation

Having a breakdown rn nothing feels oky I've got so much of work to do so many responsibilities to shoulder I feel like a failure . I typed this cause I wanted to be heard . I'm fine 

Depression

I met this guy over social media. We are of the same age. The first thing that attracted me towards him is his extremely good looks and his voice and the way he would speak English while carrying the conversation in the most measured way. He works in Dubai and was in Delhi, his hometown for a month. We started talking over phone. He was very caring and told me about his past relationship which was serious one which resulted in their breakup due to the girl's parents.he kept on telling me he is financially very unsound of late due to a huge loss. And how he takes care of his mom and his brother's family. And he kept on telling me how he doesn't want to go to Dubai and wants to settle down in Delhi only. He one day proposed to me and told me how much he loves me and I am the woman all he needs. Then before leaving for Dubai he was in a state of depression for having to leave India and his family. One day I got so pissed of with his perpetual state of mind being depressed and just crying over things and I became really mad at him. Eversince then, as if he has changed. After reaching Dubai, we have been in touch. But he would not say like earlier that he misses me and he loves me. I asked him why has he stopped doing so. He said give me some time. Whenever I ask him if he loves me he would say, 'yes, I do'. That's all. Nothing beyond that. Over this period I have noticed he is not like most of men, talking about sex only. He would talk to me very respectfully. I asked him three days back, how does he see the future. He said that he is now not in a stage to commit, as he wants to move to the US and I am not willing to move to the US. How will u work out on things then, he asked me. I told him that Exactly the government has spent so much on me so far in terms of education, I would love to teach here only my country people as I am a teacher in the government sector in higher education. He said I am proud of u. But then things are difficult between us. I told him in such a situation let's stop talking as in the long run its going to be painful. He agreed without any objection. And just said, I will miss u. And it has been 4 days we have severed all contacts. I miss him too. His composure and being very patient with me even when I m being little rude to him. Does he love me? Have I done the right thing by asking to stop any communication? 
Please guide🙏

Breakup

Emotional and Helpless
I am dating a guy for more than 4 years now. We are planning for marriage but since the day our parents spoke, he seems to be a little cut off from me. He never answers my call, doesn't want to clear out on things. He does nothing special for me. I just feel to be there with him nothing else. As he was contracted with COVID 10 days ago and was having trouble with health he didn't call or answer my call for a week, now that he is recovering and quite better still he doesn't make a call, just a WhatsApp message that too he replies my message after 12-14 hours later. I love him a lot and wait for his messages and calls every day. I feel so helpless and emotional that I end up bursting out at myself. I don't know to control plus I am a short temperred person and he never tries to calm me down. I am literally frustrated and spend each day crying.

Relationships

Don't have gf and my friends are sleeping 😴
With whom am I suppose to chat now 🤔

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