Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts

I keep texting him everyday… I can’t find a reason to move on… i’m so attached and used to him… how do I stop this urge of trying to constantly contact him?

Do you ever get the feeling that you are the only one who is working hard to hold the relationship together ?

I am noting this down. I gotta stop being so desperate… I keep letting my emotions take control of my actions.

Not exactly… he’s started off by taking a break because of family issues that was taking a toll on him… i think I pushed him too hard…

thank you so much brother!

yes I will… thank you for all the kind words.

Then give it time. Don’t rush things or just state a conclusion by yourself! Just assess the situation before you take a decision… Most of the people here have an agenda of giving the worng advices so they find a way to get in the way. I would suggest you to start listening to yourself rather than a theird person. Just like I said give it some time. You will know what’s up! If its a genuine problem in his family, stand beside him because he is vulnerable and needs your presence at any cost. This is his bad time and it demands for your presence. Good luck!

I requested him to let me stay by his side in this difficult time but he won’t let me… he said he wants to be alone… he was never like this before but this time he is so cold hearted towards me and pushing me away instead… I can’t figure out if he really wants to be alone for some time or is trying to end things with me. I don’t know if I should wait for him or give up…

For how long has this been going on ?

a couple of weeks now…

Hmm I understand. See I don’t know the bond you share with this person. People tend to push someone away at time when they want to be alone or suffering from a deep trauma. I really can’t help or imagine the way you are feeling now. But I can help you in telling you that have faith in your relationship. Don’t give up until you lost all hope. Start believing for the sake of the reason why you both came together at the first place. That spark may save or help you believe or make you happy. Indulge yourself in some activity… talk to your friends or parents. It will really help you get through unless you suffer from anxiety! That’s not the case is it ?

The thing is, when i’m around friends and family, i can kind of stop thinking about all the bad things that could happen… infact, I tend to be normal around them… even i can’t figure out whether being normal around people is pretend or real but I just show a sad face.
the trouble is when i’m alone in my room and anxiety kicks in. If I try to read a book, I finish pages without understanding a same thing… can’t concentrate on anything… but I keep telling myself that this isn’t the end of the world.
this is my first time experiencing all these feelings

I mean i just can’t* show a sad face.

Yes. Be prepared for the worst. Only you have the power to do that. The only thing that can get you through is being prepared. You can do mediation… I also suffer through anxiety because I tend to overthink stuff. But then there’s no one in my life to overthink about. 😄
Anyway, anxiety kicking in is not good for you. It takes a toll on your physical health and give you less time to think rationally. Master the art of preparing yourself for the worst and trust me, you can withstand anything that’s thrown at you.

I know deep inside that i’m stronger than this and that there’s just so much to be happy and grateful about. I just need to believe in myself a little more. i keep telling myself “I will not let this situation depress me”. Thank you for putting some sense in me. Believe me, I feel stronger now.

also, If overthinking was a talent, we’d excel in it, don’t you think so? 😂

I have this emotional attachment and have been dependent on him for so many years which is making this process of accepting the fact harder. But like you said, I am going to try and focus on myself and come out stronger.

You can make yourself more busy get a hobby ,learn something new ,go for vacation and etc

i’m actually going for a brief solo vacation tomorrow… need to get the hell out of my room and take a breather somewhere else. who knew love could affect one’s life to this extend. i’m afraid i can actually commit to anyone anymore.

Good for you going for solo vacation
Don’t be afraid we learn from our mistakes
Where you are planning to go ?
Try to go hilly ,mountain place where you can find peace and enjoy yourself

I’m going to a hilly town… need some good energy from mother nature.
p.s. it’s my first time solo travelling.

Great
Go ahead if you need any help you can ask
I came to Pune right now and went to visit many places alone
It was good
Pune is amazing place

Awesome! if I need guide as a fellow solo traveller, i’ll remember you.