Give yourself permission to walk away from anything that gives you bad vibes. There is no need to explain it. Just trust what you feel.

Sometimes it's hard... Especially of it come from your close one... You can't handle it but you can't leave them either... 😢

Self Esteem

बात जो है उसमें बात वो यहाँ कहीं नहीं किसी में
वो है मेरी, बस है मेरी, शोर है यही गली गली में
साथ साथ वो है मेरे ग़म में मेरे दिल की हर खुशी में
ज़िंदगी में वो नहीं तो कुछ नहीं है मेरी ज़िंदगी में


3am Thoughts

Is it good to use sa-licylic acid facewash? Isn't it too harsh to use daily? 
I have oily skin, blackheads, whiteheads.

Good 

Current Affairs

Unhappy marriages in family affects youngsters view or perspective towards marriage

I am carrying a really big guilt. I don't know how to cope with it. I was dating a guy for a year and then I got scholarship to do phd in another country. And after few days of confused state we decided to get married because I couldn't see him sad (he had a traumatic past). And we secretly got married. For some reason I had to come back and we started living together. The relationship was not working. I was depressed for giving up everything for him and he couldn't take it. There were fights, verbal abuse for years. And one day I found someone with whom I could connect. I started meeting him. Though I told my husband about this new friend. He thought all of this I am doing is just to have physical relationship with another man. He never realized there were problems in the relationship. It's been months we live separately. He wanted me back because he tells me I used to understand him and care for him. I didn't go because I am tired of doing things, criticism, sarcasm and his misogyny. 
But I feel guilty and I don't know what to do. I get panic attacks and feel like I should kill myself. I want to go back because I feel so guilty but I know I cannot live with a who does not respect women and who just want me there to help him recover from his traumatic past. 
I feel so hopeless. I feel I lost everything. Everything is falling apart. I can't deal with any of this. 

Anxiety

losing friends is soo soo bad. So hurtful. i still miss him so much but we didn't end well. He's done a lot and maybe i also had some inputs . we can't become what we were. i miss someone supporting me 24/7. i miss him ranting , i miss him listening to my rants. I absolutely miss how everytime something good happened i would immediately text him. i miss how he would console me when i cried for two hours when i got 72/80 in my maths paper. i hate how all these years we studied together and now it's Just me here alone. I hate how whenever something good happens and i pick up my phone to text you but I can't. i hate what you did today and how i reacted. 

Friends

I am tired of people asking me what I am going to be doing after college. Because I don't know. Nothing is calling out to me. My boyfriend and I have been talking about it a lot as far as our future. All I can say right now is that I am just going with the flow of it right now. I am going to be a senior next year, and then I will be free. 

I think it is understated how many students graduate and doesn't know what they will do for a career after school. The amount of pressure that is put on us to figure it out by the time we graduate college is unbelievable. I just want to live and not have to worry about it. I know that in the future, it will be okay and everything will work out, but I just wish I was done with school now and at that point in the future where I don't have to answer any more questions about where I am working and what I am going to be doing. 

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