Gharwale aise insan hai ki jinke bina raha nhi jata or jinke sath to bilkul bhi nhi rha jata...

Agree krna to nhi chiye but - sach to sach hi hota h :')

3am Thoughts

I'm the one who is hurt and they are feeling like a shitty person for hurting me and now I'm supposed to make them feel better :)

Exhausted

some nights I wish I could go back in life, not to change anything but just to feel those moments twice.


Feeling sad and angry about something. Whatever people say let me tell you one thing Money is VERY Important.. After Covid everything is so damn expensive.....


Money Problems

I find it extremely difficult to connect with people to open my self up. I put up barriers and push people away.

Lonely

Hey everyone 
I am just here to writing my story, my thoughts that i can't share with anyone..!
I m 25 and never been into any relationship in my entire life..i don't know even what love is? But some thoughts bothering me since last 2 years. So i just want to wrote it down so that i could feel somewhat light.
My reason of staying single was quite obvious that i never wanted short term relationship or anything just for time pass. I have a huge impact of mythological heroines so always wanted to b a one man lady..so never got fascinated with anyone and nor found anyone whom i could fall for.
But  it was 2018 , 6 month after my graduation ended..things changed. I found someone very attractive (not by looks but by his qualities) on social media. He was average looking guy but had immense educational qualifications and intellect. I was strongly attracted towards his charm and intelligence. 
Since childhood,as my interest always shifted for more intelligent person because i have been a inquisitive kind person , as a result i like someone of great intelligence too! Now he had became my crush. And hence we became frnds , we had few conversations ,we both were single and the best part was we both were of same community..and in a few days of our friendship we exchanged our contact (asked by him). ..frankly speaking..it was like a dream come true..!!everything was going very smoothly and according to me..as if god were sitting beside me and fulfilling my every wish..things was going well.. He was ditto the same person i ever imagined for as far as i got to know him. We even had a small conversation in W'app once ...but as soon as we exchanged our number things started to get away from my favour..as i liked him..i purposely posted a status on W'app but when i checked the viewer list..he didn't watch my story. .i was bit confused. Next day again i posted another story..but this time also he wasn't a viewer of my status. So finally i saved his number on my mother's phone just to make sure if his dp is visible to me or not..But his dp can be accessible from my mother's phone too..from there i could understand that his dp and all infos from W'app was public and came to know that he didn't even save my number in his phone and seriously  that truth killed me! I never meant that important to him as he was for me.
Gradually his behavior towards me changed.. he stopped showing any interest towards me (though he never showed that he too liked me) but as a friend too..he stopped messaging me , never ever tried to W'app me inspite of having my number (that he never saved ),  stopped liking my picture, commenting on my posts, and reacting to my stories..literally he stopped doing everything from his side..but he replied me if i messaged him from my side! His behavior was quite confusing for me to understand . Later just after few months i saw his dp having a girl just beside him, saw his lovely comment on the same girl photos in her profile.

Now everything is clear to me that he got away from me coz he already had fallen for that girl who is extremely pretty and attractive too. Its been 2 years since then..We never had any conversation after that never even i tried..! Because i know ,his reply will definitely come but deep down i also know that he doesn't feel the same i felt for him. I still feel sometimes for him!
For me he was like a king of my dream but i m not his queen..!!!
I was attracted towards him in such a way that i can't get over from him since that day...  i still have his number. .sometimes i delete it and when i got his strong desire then again saved his number..

It was very different feeling for him and i never ever felt the same for anyone. Literally for anyone..!! I feel some connections between us..but alas! he could feel the same i felt for him..I wish the feelings  were mutual . Well i know this story sounds to b unamusing...but that's the reason why i never shared it to anyone. I still can get him into my feeds but unfortunately i can't express my feelings to him..! I must say..this wasn't a love story but a one sided love story...that can't b ever known by my crush..! It all was an adventurous journey..!! 

Now i feel much better! Thank u for patience reading!

Relationships

Somewhere we have started to focus more on our sadness. we nurture our sadness as if it is our child or plant. we find the comfort in that zone, in that usual routine / pattern of that zone.
And anytime, something sad happens, we repeat the same damn pattern. try noticing it ? 
1.some isolate, some overeat , emotionally overeat ,some just shut down, some listen to Sombre music to escalate that emotion, some just keep themselves on social media, watching endless addictive  reels and the list goes on.
WHATS YOUR PATTERN😅?

solutions :
well, what if next time,
👮you just break that pattern and try going out for a walk  or watch the sky or get closer to nature or may be trying journaling or getting closer to your breathing or just talk to a friend who genuinely wants to hear your shits.😁

Having said that, 
lets dissect this emotion named sadness, it  is relatable and help us to connect with people on a deeper level yet it can get addictive,especially when romanticising it,feels poetic.🙈
and tbh, a lot of people are just clinging to it deliberately by making it a necessary part of our life. and that's not cool at all.🙅‍♀️
let's break these patterns.
love & hope ❤️

Sharing Our Innermost Thoughts