Getting attached to her everyday is lovely and beautiful feeling but the monstrous fear of being rejected is what hurts me. I can't even ignore her, can't even express my feelings with her and can't even stay away from her. I want her to be my soulmate. I don't know what to do and how to react. Thinking of this everyday is what breaking my heart l. 

The fear of losing her is what making me to stop expressing. What should I do?

Don't fall deeply in love thy will broke you in million pieces 💔

Depression

So, I've been hearing that our branch might be closing down and alll through the grapevine of course, the company will obviously not inform us till we're on our knees. This means I'm on the job hunt again, after having worked here for just close to 3 years. It just feels so sad and so strange that employees don't really mean much to a company and are irreplaceable. Moreover, the physical and mental burden that unemployment brings , till I'm back on my feet and I know that I have a job. Sometimes, really, there's only so much optimism that you can force out of yourself. Just want this phase to get over soon. 

Work

Move on ni ho paa rha

3am Thoughts

I am really missing my ex right now ... But he is so toxic but still I am ignoring everything 😭. And he blocked me .  So I am not able to contact him .

Breakup

I wish I felt beautiful. You can say that I’m toxic, but no one is born toxic. I was made toxic by my past relationships. I’m insecure now even though I have a boyfriend. He’s great and loves me, the best boyfriend that I’ve had so far. He doesn’t intentionally make me insecure, but today he was watching a tiktok where this dudes girlfriend took him to get coffee where the Waitresses were in bikinis. The girlfriend in the video was saying that she took him there so he could see that she isn’t toxic, and so he could enjoy himself. My boyfriend told me to see, and it was like asking me why I can’t be like that and it made me feel sad. I wish I wasn’t insecure. It made me feel like I wasn’t enough for him. I wish I didn’t feel this way about myself. He’s good to me, and everything but I still feel like I’m not enough. Why do guys still care about stuff like that if they have someone who they love already? Why do they still feel the need to want to look at other women. 

Relationships

people don't talk enough about how isolating being an overthinker can be. you get so caught up in your thoughts and feel so unsure of what everyone feels about you, that it becomes impossible to really be in the moment and strike a genuine connection. does anyone else feel this way too?

Overthinking

That moment of happiness you get when you are talking to a person on the comments section ? ❣️
Like I am at that place where I do not talk to much friends rarely sometimes where the conversation makes you happy. 
Yesterday had a conversation or more like me talking about myself with a stranger on the comments section it just felt nice and happy. :)
Even earlier I had some fun interactions with a 'gang' on some of the posts. But then they did not include me in their gang 🥺 still it's okay but that timepass made me have fun and be happy for a moment. 

Happy

You misunderstood everything Meredith. You’ll refuse to listen to me when I attempted to meet with you to talk about everything. But I love you and a good or bad way. I love you forever. ￼￼

One Sided Love

I don't know what I am feeling or like what is going on?...kinda lost these days..dear community members kindly ask me some questions so i can get my brain gears working..

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