Get your S.H.I.T together. Skincare, happiness, inner peace and time. 

Mental Wellbeing

I sometimes feel like my boyfriend does need me as much as i need him , i knw he loves me but still there's this thing always crosses my mind , did he loved his ex more than me , he did crazy things for her but i have never seen that crazy side of his with me....when i overthink about all this it hurtsss me so much 

3am Thoughts

Tonight I’m feeling alone. As If I have my friends and family but when the night comes I have no one beside me, no friends to call, no friends to hang out, to go on night adventures. It sucks. I really do feel lonely. I wish I had somebody there when everyone else is sleeping. I have a boyfriend but at times it feels like I don’t. When I have anxiety attacks, hard days or I feel like I need to cry he’s mostly hanging out with his friends, sleeping or playing so it makes me feel like alone as well. 

Boyfriend

Jago Grahak Jago

or may be i came across most of the racists only.

People are not worthy of your tears. Trust me.

Relationships

Can someone please criticize this love letter? If you have any advice please feel free to comment as I would greatly appreciate it. There might be some grammatical errors, so please leave me a comment. Thank You!

Reasons why I like you. Your smile, you smile very brightly. It lights up my world. Your laugh, whenever you laugh it makes me cheerful, ultimately making me laugh as well. Your eyes, as I stare deeply into your eyes, I think about the future and what it inevitably holds for us. Your hair, I think I’m attracted to girls with curly hair. Is that weird? Lol. The way you talk, even though I don’t say much or know how to properly respond, I feel like I can talk to you all day. Your presence, you are the highlight of my day and I get excited when I see you. Your personality, you're positive and charismatic, even though you may have a naughty mouth sometimes. You're also a hard worker, which is rare and strangely attractive. Last but not least, your butt. Is that rude? Honestly, it’s just a plus. I don’t care about trivial things like that. wink*

When did I start liking you? Well at first I didn’t think much of you. To me, you were just another high school girl. You didn’t talk much at first, which was totally normal because you were new, so I didn’t think much of you. It wasn’t until you called me a bitch that I finally opened up to you. Which is also weird. Strangely enough, it made felt comfortable around you until I started catching feelings for you. I started developing insecurities because I didn’t want to displease you. I felt insecure about the way I talked because at times I couldn’t find the correct words. I didn’t want to say anything wrong, so I began to overthink. I would eventually find a suitable answer after 5 minutes of evaluating the question, but at that point, it didn’t matter anymore because you were doing something else. I thought it would be easier if I avoided talking to you and it was, but I still couldn’t control my feelings. 

Nowadays I barely see you. I only get to see you once a week. Sometimes once every two weeks. Even when I did see you, we rarely talk because it was always so busy. Now all I can do is think about you and it hurts. But it’s understandable, you’re still a student and you shouldn’t be working too hard anyways. I just miss you a lot. 

You should live your life the way it was meant to be. I don’t want stray you from a greater path and it pains me knowing that I’ll only hold you back. I would be too embarrassed when it comes to meeting your parents. How can a worthless man like me take care of their beautiful daughter? I’m working at Walmart because I don’t know what I want to be. Why do I have to be anything? Why can’t I just be happy? I think the purpose of life is to find love. I want someone to love me unconditionally without judging me, but if I loved that person, wouldn’t I want them to be in a better position with a better person? In the end, it’s a lose-lose situation for me. This is my fate. Regardless, it seems as though you are already receiving love. The way you talk and connect to people is something I envy. Something I wish I can instinctively do. It gives me reassurance knowing that you’ll still be happy after I leave. It makes it a lot easier. 

Did you like the shows I recommended? In a way I wanted you to know how I felt. I wanted you to see that I was hurting, even if it wasn’t obvious. I wanted you to hold me close to your heart as you tightly squeezed me. I wanted you to be my reason to live. I wanted a happy ending. 

Mianhae (name). As you are the first and last girl I will ever love. Saranghae! 


Recently I suffered from nostalgic depression, just a minor thought about the good old days in Minecraft, and i ended up debilitated in my bed. Don't let the things you love be ripped from you. Hold on to them tight. You will need  them, for years to come.

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