Gave 20+ Interviews failed terribly, decision making later comes with guilt, disappointment to parents feels like quitting!!!!

I am a Final year student, B.Tech CSE. Mostly Full-Stack Development / Software Engineering.

Hey, I have Invested my last 4 years(16 Lakh)in understanding CS fundamentals, working on different technology I am more passionate in this domain, yet I am not getting true success.

Failure

I always wonder why suicide is seen as an act of coward

Insomnia

Life just happens really, it's your call on what to do about it. 

Life

My nights! know my light!
My Life! Knows My Love! 
& Emotions & U Knows my thoughts!


The person who don't text first to anyone and no more interested in chat conversation. Once waited for a single message of someone till hours :(......❤️

Adulting

Should I believe a guy's words or his actions towards me ... To ensure he likes me or not ... He told me we can be friends and that he does not want to be in a relationship ... Where he was giving me hints that he is falling for me ... Eyes can tell ...why would he save my photo on his phone .. Why will he make so much eye contacts , smile at me , give me adorable expressions , try to impress me , come closer when I am standing behind him , blushes when I am around , listens to me when I am talking , smiles when I am laughing , he cracks up joke and checks if I am laughing or..not . making eye contacts from the corner of room ..if I am in another room he makes effort to atleast be in a space from where we can see each other ...why will he act so nervous around me and be comfortable around other girls ... Copies my body language ...showing his friends photos of me ...giving me sexual expressions too.. I dont understand this ...like if you dont so let me go if I am like looking at some other guy why would he  give me such a death stare ... He blushes so hard when his friends mention something about me ... I love him obvious ly but  what does this all mean ....I have not seen him from 15 days...this is insanely hurting me .. He just funds me attractive or something ....or he avoids me because he dont want to fall. In love

Crush

How can you tell if you like your best friend as a friend or something more? 

LGBTQ

Time is an Illusion
Life is an Illusion


3am Thoughts

I feel very lonely even though I have a lot of people around me. There is this empty feeling inside of me. I talk and connect with people but all of this is quite draining. I’ve been called toxic since I find ways to isolate people or find ways to fight with them constantly. I don’t know what is wrong with me. Why do I have to be negative all the time 😕

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