Full of fake people around you.. 

Insecurity

Friends

Colleague

I'm fake. I pretend to be stuff I'm not.


Exhausted

Shit I judged my friends too soon🤐i feel guilty now

3am Thoughts

Which incident made you realize that you don't have friends? 

My friends see me as a formality now. It feels like I am a burden for them. We hangout in a group and I’m always left alone. It’s daily like that. I feel so unwanted and hurt. I don’t know what to do. Should I leave them but then I don’t have other friends as well. It’s difficult either way. 

Lonely

I have only one friend who i talk to daily today they didn't talk to me at all and told me to shut up and leave them alone I felt so bad and today I also felt very lonely are they trying to cut me off or I don't really know, they're not in a good place and when I try to talk they cut me and ask me to leave this feels really bad and makes me anxious because I feel they will abandon me

Why is it so hard to balance friendships ? 
Like if I spent time on my friendships it affects my personal relationship and vice versa help 

So basically today i played a sad ticktock sound that said: ¨im sorry for making it hard to get to know me and im sorry for questioning your loyalty constantly im sorry that i do self destructive things that are scary to you and make you worry about me all the time im sorry about the little things that set me off and im sorry for overacting to seemingly insignificant things im sorry if i seem cold and distant sometimes im sorry for relying on you im sorry for talking about myself to much and im sorry for being another thing that you have to worry about im sorry for a lot of things but mostly im sorry for existing because you wouldn't have to go through any of this.¨ 

So basically i kept playing this around my friends to see if they were my true friends and so i asked one group of my friends what was in common with every single time i played the sound and it took them awhile to say that we giggled every time and i explained that i did that to show them that no matter how sad or depressed i get i will always have my true best friends there to cheer me up and there to rely on. 

Then, i tried this on another group of ¨my friends¨ and i asked them and then one of the girls actually said well i dont care why your doing this i have other things to do and so i explained why i was doing it and how it was a test and that she had failed. So im saying that friends can be fake and sneaky and have hearts as cold as stone and they will be in disguise and fool you into giving you your trust until you slowly become innocent and weak to them and then they will prey on you till your done for and theres  no hope so do this and be careful with your friends.

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