For the past few years I've been having a really hard time with my friendships and when I've finally got a chance to meet new people idk but I've  unconsciously created a wall which I don't know how to overcome :)
Its just makes me feel its me who's the problem. 

Anxiety

IDK what to do...Just feel lost and pathetic... 

Chatting 24*7 to no replies.. 
Closed ones to Strangers...
Secret Keepers to News channel...
Cuss words to No words...

Everyday seems to be new..
Every old face seems to be new..

Life changes a lot. People said life's a rollercoaster ride and it hit me very hard...

If I ever had to wish something, I would erase each and the last negative vibe they created...🙂




Frustration

Conversation
It is Sunday eve and it is little bit cold here and now i wanna do some random chats conversation and i really wanted to talk to peoples and know about their ideas so lets do it 

Feeling disgusting...
I don't really have that kind of friends whom I can reach out immediately on my bad times.Parents.they never try to understand.What to do? I have been trying to keep myself motivated.But not able to.
I have 1 friend who's too innocent and I can't reach out to her with my issues.She's like a 5th class innocent girl.The other two won't make me feel comfortable. Am I wrong if I need the best and perfect version? I always regret while watching best friends in movies.its been 19 years and I never found one who's best for me.my sibling always demotivates me for everything I do.what should I do? It's really very painful😔

So my boyfriend of almost 3 years broke up with me. I didn’t know anything was wrong since we were doing stuff as we used to. I had a very important exam in September and was generally having a very hard time had home but he always ensured me that he understands and we were stronger than ever according to me. One day we had a fight where when I was upset he did everything to manao me. The next day I told him ki I wasn’t happy that we were fighting and should stop fighting. It was then he told me that he toh was not happy at all and didn’t want to be with me anymore. He didn’t even breakup with me saamne se. It was only when I stroke up a conversation that he told me. I was shocked and heartbroken. I still am. I called him up the next day and implored him to tell me a reason and that’s when he told me that he didn’t love me anymore. I could not understand a single word after that as my heart broke. 

I am overthinking so much. It feels like this is my fault. I am angry also that he didn’t even tell me what went wrong. He was faking all the love and efforts as he didn’t love me. Thag is what hurts the most. He was faking it for i dont know how long. He broke my heart. We were together for almost three years. This is my first relationship and I don’t have a single bad memory, he was amazing and what we had was beautiful. That’s why it hurts so much. I don’t understand what happened. He just said he does not love me anymore. Nothing else, no other reason. He broke my heart. He was faking his love last mei for I don’t know how long. 

I feel so lonely. It physically hurts. I cannot talk to people about it because it hurts so much. 



Breakup

I am the GOAT!
I CANT explain it to anyone but I am the GOAT of my field in India. You can google me and my details appear. :D
Did not realize this deeply earlier.. But doing it now and giving myself credit feels really good. 

3am Thoughts

A hundred miles.. A hundred miles...
one can hear the whistle blow
A hundred miles.

Na koi h na koi tha, zindagi me tumhare siwa,,,
oh hamnawa....🙂🙂

Love

Do movies have a moral obligation to always show the right thing? 

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