For the first time in so many years of my life, I haven't had anxiety after coming home from somewhere, I never had peaceful sleep after some event but yesterday. Some people are literally your savior. Coming home to him felt so so peaceful. ❤

Love

I feel lonely 😕 iam not speaking almost all the boys in my class just because of some stupid people 

Depression

Craving to sing my songs , how amazing it'll be if there will be someone to listen to them! 😩✨

Music

https://open.spotify.com/track/3If1PJtB9UqMf5VwCWHp80?si=DZGqx2zTSMuwhf11d0ie4w

When everything is falling apart, just enjoy the phase and tune to "Ending" by Isak Danielson

Hi everyone!

I'm here in this app after a long break.

I was feeling extremely lonley that's why I choose to come back here today. I'm posting this with a hope of finding words of support and comfort.

You know a very dramatic incident happened in my life just before couple of days. I am a depression patient. So that day I was extremely suicidal the particular day because I felt extremely lonley hopeless and burntout of life. I was in my hostel. And unluckily that particular day all my roommates went to home. I was extremely suicidal. And was holding myself back as much as I can. But suddenly out of impulse I took around 10 tablets. I thought I will just be dizzy for a while and it will just end as an self harm. But my bad I was admitted to iCU for a day. Thankfully my boyfriend was near me I was able to overcome it. I am actually doing PG 1st year. So now I am alive everyone started critizing me as worst as they can. My hostel staffs and executives said I tried to kill myself because of relationship issues. My parents believed it and started treating us badly. Even the hospital doctors thought the same. Is the only mistake is that he stayed by my side? While my parents are away in another city?. I explained about my depression nobody wants to believe me. Everyone just saw me disgustingly. No one was there for me in that moment. Except for that guy. Even after these couple of days my parents are treating me like shit. No one is worried about my happiness sadness or even my mental state. No one comforted me enough. I'm still under the trauma of whatever happened. I'm still under the pain. But people mistreating me adds on to the pain. It's hard to heal. My boyfriend is suffering emotionally too so he couldn't be there with me emotionally fully. I understand him. Except for him I feel so misunderstood and lonley in this whole world I feel I have no other soul to support me even in this worst situation. Now I have to go back to my college and obviously my hostel atleast to vacate. I don't know how worsly they will treat me. Now I feel my whole life shitty and what's the point of continuing it. I won't do the same mistake again. But I am tired of my life and lonliness and I don't see a point to continue it happily obviously except for others sake.

3am Thoughts

I am feeling too lonely . My mom just taunt me all the time for my studies . My dad think i should not do science should go COMMERCE. It is getting to much now . My mom told me u will be er be able to clear ur competitive exam , i think u will not even get 35% in 12 in science. U should do arts like 12 atleast u will get pass. U are not good at anything,i do t know why u are there . A complete mess human with quality inside. U can never  do anything in ur life . I don't know how u are my child . I dint think u are my child only . Even one of my family friend was having bad time so try to help her as much as I can . But in the bed she don't care about me when i am going through so much she don't even bother to ask me how i am doing. I hate it because whenever she need me i go to help her . And get ignored at end feel unwanted from her side . What should I doo? 
I dknt know what to doo . I feel depressed stressed alone horrible . I am not eating anything now a days , don't talk hardly speak even a few words , not able to study anything , just sleeping after lecture . I don't know it is just hard to survive. I don't believe in anything anymore . I had self-love before now i just hate myself . I just don't feel like surviving ... Can anyone please help me . Need help related to neet and even some motivation to survive...

Lonely

How to forget first love

Addiction

Heavy heart. 
 
I got married last december. For many reasons it didn't go well. Now in 2 days my husband will be taking a decision whether to continue or end it friendly.

 No major issues , 2 opp character  issues.  But  he said he has an intuition that  even if we put effort it may end in a few years. So why can't we end it now.

  I don't know ,  it is affecting me very badly. I feel like iam starting to fall back on depression.


 I can see suffering all around me. 




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