For a while i’ve been having this dream where i become a very successful and loved person and while i’m at the top of the world i look down at those who bullied me in school and told me i’d never be anything, those who said nobody would love me if i didn’t change, those who hurt me and no longer remember me anymore, im watching them standing and looking up with a surprised face. I’ll make them remember who i was once they see me again. Because i’ve always known i was made to shine and idc if it sounds too egotistical, they all knew the kind of person i was meant to be and they only tried to stop me bc people are jealous and don’t want others to shine brighter than them. Even if revenge becomes my purpose, i’ll make sure to never be forgotten. Now i’m a step closer to making this dream come true, and i’ll never give up bc i know very well what i’m capable of. 

Good for you anonymous bro. Stick to your vision, forget what others show you. 

Other

I feel so depressed these days... parents aren't understanding at all. My college life sucks my love life isnt stable everything seems like it's falling apart. I just feel as if im helpless and i have totally given up on everything. :'(

Anxiety

another sleepless night consumed by my thoughts. I know I’ll get past this, but sometimes it would be nice to have a person/people to support me through these difficult moments. Here’s to finding people who care and love us ♥️ we’re all worth being loved.

3am Thoughts

Why is life so hard

I feel like every time I try to express my feelings (mostly when I am low or in a bad mood), people around me tend to tell me that all that I do is drama and I should not behave in such a way.

Personality Disorder

Thank you everyone for their positive and kind words on this site.

I met my girlfriend during the pandemic on Tinder. We matched although we lived on different continents. The connection became deeper and I went to visit her (all safety precautions taken considering the pandemic) to see if this was what we thought it was. And guess what? It was. I stayed with her over 2 months where we worked from home, did chores, watched tv and all the boring couple things as well as date nights. We fell into normalcy so effortlessly. When I returned we made plans to make this work. My work enables me to move around easily so that was the first step, and then her meeting my friends and family which was also ongoing. However, in the last month she started to withdraw, stressed, overwhelmed and so on. She has a lot of responsibilities and her work is incredibly stressful. We had a few arguments where often she 'blew up.' Then finally, she had one huge blow out and blocked me from contacting her apart from on social media. It took over a week and a half for her to respond where she said, this all felt 'impossibly difficult' and felt we would get hurt eventually and wants to end it. Even though my work was set for me to move to her, my friends and family were open and supportive. It felt so out of nowhere. Just as things were ready to go from my side.

I have been reading a lot about attachment theory. And she has expressed she is an avoidant. I am largely secure, until this last month where i displayed a lot of anxious behaviour. This last month is the only time our relationship has been tumultuous and it makes sense on how  we had been acting to one another. 

What can i do? Give her time to think it all over and risk losing her altogether. Or step in with what introspective information i know. I know she's struggling with her thoughts and feeling chaotic and overwhelmed. I know some understanding would help massive and potentially repair our relationship but i dont want to push and risk her running altogether.

Long Distance Relationship

once a cheater always cheater

Anger Issues

I am a student who took up BiPC and left maths because all the teachers in my area didn't care about teaching and only discouraged students (a very common trait in maths tutors I don't know why). Now in my drop year I'm getting to know these amazing courses which I could have pursued (all are almost research fields) that required maths as well as biology. I wish I could have changed my decision. I was talking to my dad, he thought that I had dropped maths because I wasn't interested, I told him the real reason that my maths tutor never taught me well. He told 'We could have looked for another teacher then'. My parents have always supported me and I felt like crying in that moment. Schools never teach other career prospects other than engineering for PCM or medicine for PCBi students. Now I cannot go to that field. If I could I would turn back time to take mathematics. 16 year old me couldn't decide the career he wanted to pursue as a result the 19 year old me has to bear the consequences for rest of his life.

I'm happy idk why i enjoying my own company, i just finished my assignments then read my fvrt novel then dance. I just ignoring people n it's really works .... maybe this phase is hard to avoid sadness but atleast try sometimes ignoring avoids lots of stress ... yeahh💖

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