for a long time I have fallen into a daily scrutiny retrospective introspection of my life, I remember the same things over and over again. What saddens me is that some of the things I experienced were not worth it. I should have found the strength to react. after many years I found my self-esteem again. I had accepted to be humiliated by someone, and to have been almost completely imposed on my life. he wanted to control me in whatever I did. I am not exaggerating if I say that for many years βI lived in his shadowβ.