Few years back, I proposed a guy, he didnt tell me that he loved me, he just smiled and told me that I had given him so much , also this is what he told me
" just because I haven't said anything to you yet, doesn't mean I don't feel anything "

What does this mean? 

3am Thoughts

I really need to stop smoking - I don't smoke much, but I smoke often. I will light up, take one puff and put it out. But this happens like 5 times a day, so I'm essentially a smoker. I'm a strong, disciplined person and under different circumstances, quiting would be easy. But I'm stuck at home in the lockdown with my sister, who is a chainsmoker, so I always have access, I have severe anxiety issues and to top it off I have a lot of responsibilities and stress. Maybe these are all excuses, but these things make it genuinely hard to resist a craving and every time I fail, it takes a toll on me.

Smoking

Feeling good 

Family

I m feeling unimportant today! I gave her soo much importance, missed her soo much hoping she would come Back to meet me , but I guess she did not give a fuck about me! I thought I was her bestie and that her moving to another state would not change much between us .. but  I guess I was living in a lie to protect myself from the hurt .. which afcourse came crawling back to me :/...my group of soo called friends are organising a welcome back party for her tomorrow but my mom told me not to go... my bestie just told me that it’s ok don’t come to meet me...and when I saw the group chat and another person who got lil close to mee when my bestie went away , was also not willing to goo .. every freaking body in the group fought with her that if she did not come 
Tomorrow  for the party, it will be canceled . I m hurt and I can’t explain how much !!

Hey just went on the trampoline doing flips and handsprings! It was fun, a nice distraction from the pain 🙃 anyways I’ve got another song suggestion lol people seem to be enjoying them so here’s today’s:
don’t be sad by Tate McRae
It’s basically about nobody seeing or understanding your pain. Love this one on my bad days


Music

Um hi , I'm new here and lately I've been feeling really lonely and sad. My mother is very rude to me and tomorrow is my birthday July 2 and all I wanted to do for my birthday is have my boyfriend over because she never lets me have people over and so I was really excited about it but then yesterday I asked my older sister to move over a bit because she was blocking my doorway so I asked her to move over a bit and my mother started cussing at me and calling me (disrespectful, ungrateful, rude, b*tch, stupid) all because I asked my sister to move over a bit. And she told me I couldn't have my boyfriend over and she was being rude and disrespectful to him even tho she doesn't really know him. I just I don't like my mother and today we haven't said one word to each other and tomorrow my birthday I should feel excited but I don't because I'll just be sitting in my room as always. Im ready to move out because I feel so suffocated living with her because she wants to control my life but she won't even let me get a job. Please I could just use some advice..

I wish I could hold you again, to feel your hands on my cheeks, to feel the the warmth of your breath on my lips, and for you to tell me you are still, after all this time, madly in love with me.

Love

Feeling lonelya can I talk to you ! 😔,

My gf just cheated me want to start up a new life please help me .


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