Felling lonely just want to talk to someone. If anyone is awake, reply for connecting.

Girlfriend

I have depression and fear sleeping. I tend to hallucinate and self harm a lot. My nightmares keep me up all night while I'm exhausted throughout the day. Do I really need emotional support? 

Mental Health

So there's one guy who keeps sending me follow request on insta its been months but he keep sending me flow request...I kind of know of actually he's my neighbors friend...he saw me like one or two times...but Idk why he sends me follow request quite often...should I accept his request or leave it like that?

Confusion

i’m so exhausted. i haven’t accomplished anything or experienced anything i’ve wanted to in my life. i cant get over fear and anxiety. i cant express my feelings or thoughts. i have no one to talk to. i type my feelings in my notes app but i can only stare at this screen for so long and i can only keep it all in my phone hidden for so long. i don’t know how to explain what’s wrong with me. no one knows because i haven’t shared my thoughts or feelings to them. i’m so insecure that i hide it by making everyone believe i love myself. at the end of the day, i sit here staring at the ceiling, hating myself and hating my decisions. 

3am Thoughts

Just need a break from every person in my life..... I just wanna meet strangers 

If you could be a color, which color would you be and why?

I'll go first

I'll be purple - with both shades of blue and red, 

blue as to sometimes I'm totally collected even in a terrible situation.

 Red as to when I'm a mess, my thoughts are mess especially when I'm alone 

Hi,

I'm about to turn 27 in precisely 6 days. My girlfriend of 6 months ghosted me about a month ago. I tried staying calm and tried to understand may be this has to do something with the lockdown and everyone's stressed but she doesn't want to talk to me or discuss literally anything.

Everytime I call or text that would make her upset and she would say.. 'it was all fine until I got your text now'. This would kill me.

Honestly, I was down for a month as hell overthinking every possible fixation to this problem that I have because we really had a nice time on a trip just before the lockdown started and we couldn't see eachother after that.

She used to be a very courageous and sensible woman and now I feel like I don't even know her.

We haven't spoken to eachother since a week now.. I don't know how am I leading my life with this. 

The thing is I miss her so much also I feel like I've lost her already.

These thoughts about her is painfully terrible.

What do I do?

Relationships

Part 1:
Being lonely is a part of my life and earlier I used to be really not able to handle it in a good way, leading to so many mental breakdown which made me convert myself into a pretencious individual who thought everything is gonna be okay if i be like that but sadly that wasnt the case as it made me push away so many people because of them not interested to be with me and they only respected me as how good of a person i am but never got close and be all ears when i needed them the most. Although, I tried to step up but I indirectly got to sense that they werent really interested in me and i made some blunt reasons that maybe i am not a good fit because of my boring character or personality per se but later i figured out that we dont go well with eachother as i am not good at initiating a conversation and just wait for the other person to speak up. I still dont know what the reason might be but i hope i get the reason someday. I admit that i am an old school but that doesnt mean i dont love trends..i really love them..just it takes time for me to catch up with these amazing trends and by the time i do, they have already left the store, without me. Maybe I got the best out of their patience and due to that, they left!!? haha..no worries..i know, it is what it is
i never believed in mass friendship! just having 1 or 2 at the very most is all good to me because they know who you are, be close to you, stand with you at ur difficult time and what not.
will continue in part 2! haha...feels like i am writing a story on me lol
still, it feels good by writing it down in here..

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