Feeling very low n anxious about my life... Don't know what sould i do... Charm of life is gone...

3am Thoughts

You need to know this
No-one i repeat no-one can stay by your side forever...some gonna leave you intentionally while others unintentionally...but in the end of the day,month or a year only you will be with you, who didn't leave your side no matter how hard impossible the situation is...so treat yourself better ,give all the love n care to yourself first rather than giving those people who didn't appreciate it... **KNOW YOUR WORTH ,YOU ARE KING/QUEEN TREAT YOURSELF LIKE THAT..STOP SEEKING FOR A VALIDATION IN OTHERS**
You got this....take care of yourself
- Queen 👑

Self Love

Can anybody tell me when will this covid end?  Or idk predict or say something about it.


COVID-19

I joined now and me to release my own thoughts but found myself helping others. In a way I was releasing while healing at the same time. I am here to support and receive support. To truly be a community! 

Mental Health

Today a New Year has started and also a New Decade.
Most of us get hurt and disturbed when someone judges us
Or when our family and/or friends or for that matter even any acquaintance or stranger passes some harsh remarks against us.
We start feeling the way ppl make us feel.
We too start doubting our abilities,potential and worth.
Trolling and Bullying pricks.

But the matter of fact is even the most renowned personalities who have achieved so much in life too are trolled mercilessly.
So no matter what you do in life
People will find faults n try putting u down..
Let no one judge you
Because no one is perfect..
Pls donot permit anyone to hurt you...
Live Life On Your Terms.
Do All That Gives You Happiness Because Your Life Is Your Life.
Let this be your new year resolution to feel peace n happiness...
Nobody absolutely nobody has the authority to judge your worth...

May eachone of you n your family have a happy n blessed year and your desires come true..

Take care Everyone

Bullying

How to trust your boyfriend again once he has broken it but he says he is sorry?(long distance)

Lonely . Im sick of life. There is no way out. I cant do it anymore. I want this to all end. I have no one to talk to

Lonely

You think too much, that's your trouble.
Don't bother,
Good night.

I want to share these things if someone could help me out to handle this. I have severe OCD, even though I have been diagnosed for the past three years. Still 1 am not seeing any improvement. But whenever the doctor asks me how I am feeling, by that time i feel i am fine. Do it After returning home, especially when i am alone or no one sees me, i behave like mad.
These are my symptoms I am facing i am always scared Or god or any devotional thing (either it is pic, or Songi hear, any temple near my place). i feel like my sitting or lying position Is directed towards any temple or god pictures..etc..so 1 Can't sit or lay down properly for more than second... slaps me and then Sit again.. Won't be satisfied. again gets up and slaps me and sits..again repeat the same thing too many times till i feel like crying. whenever i read a Book or watching tv or sitting idle or doing some office work, all of a sudden i get the god/ goddess pictures flashes in my mind. and immediately i imagine them nude and their private parts or having sex each other, even sometimes with me too.- so i feel guilty and stand on my reet and slaps myself and asking for forgiveness and crying and begging excuse of my sinful thoughts - and i don't be satisfied by doing this once or twice. I do it repeatedly till i get tired and always get thoughts of spitting on the god pics, always want to kick them with my feet - immediately i realized it and again asking for excUse repeatedly. I Heard in my childhood that 'Sani Dev' is the powerful god and punish us for any sinful acts. I always remembers the name sani' prompting that Sani, Sani, .if i want to do anything, i immediately get a thought of 'if i st like this, Sani will attack, if i do like that Sani will come...if i drink water, Sani, It i don't read this, Sani and i keep changing my positions, directions, repeatedly.. and i wanted to wash my legs properly and if i don't wash properly, 'Sani' will attack...soi repeatedly wash legs again and again and make sure no gapS.. if a single drop of water fall on my leg or even if i feel wet on any of my leg, i have to wash my legs fully, otherwise Sani.. repeatedly...repeatedly.. It became how severe it is, all my thoughts of God got replaced by Sani.. Yes... I am getting thoughts of spitting on Sani, Abusing Sani with bad words, having sexual thoughts with sani... feel like if i get some thoughts of any other god like this, somehow could ask for forgiveness and relief. But getting
 these thoughts on Sani Dev are like hell to me... I really don't know how to pray how much I should beg for my abnormal thoughts. And thinking about over cleaning repeatedly washing hands .especially when Iam in periods, I literally change my dress at least 5 to 6 times in a day and even though if i wash my hands face properly, still i get the doubts like if there is any stain earlie..and i shouldn't touch there, my clothes shouldn't Touch there, so immediately remove that dress and 1 shouldn't be touched by myself by those clothes, so i wash repeatedly again and again.. I can't stop washing Tany water arops spll over irom the wash basin,, AlsO I repeatedly clean the things lIke chair,sofa..etc. thinking that my period stains touch that place, if i place my mobile or any object by mistake at that place, i do wash them TOo repeatedly.. even clean the things though they are not touching directly also..Ike It should be cleaned or any other object which is in contact of any other object that again which is in contact of that used clothes or anything like a chain (though there are no stains at all. am really tired of doing all these things on the whole day, i am unable to sleep properly, feeling to commit suicide, whenever i see high buildings, places...i desperately wanted to jump over it.. am still taking the medicines for this, still i am not happy With the treatment. am really fed up of taking pills from so long time and want to stop.. .hats why i am cheating myself and telling that i am Tine to the doctor and to my husband (he literally frustrated with me, he is getting angry if i tell him that still i have problem or it i am not fine)..
I always want to punish myself for my thoughts, Scared of each and every moment in my life, scared of the next minute of my life thinking something bad may happen...it is disturbing my work life, personal and family life.. Please help... please help..

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