Feeling stuck in a loop. Wish I had the guts to leave everyone behind…..

Loop where you want to leave all your life behind and start fresh or just keep going and be the bad person who ruins my family’s reputation 

I am assuming you are talking about emotions. 
Nothing can be gained without conflict specially when it internal. 
The pain of 'not taking step' is far greater than 'taking the wrong step'. 
If you take step you might loose something but if you take the step you gain much more, even more to compensate the loss and still have the savings. 

Overthinking

Hi brain,
I am mad at you. For a lot of reasons actually but especially for not knowing. For not knowing what you really should. Why are you so confused about life? When will you figure it out? Is it your job or not? Because I'm getting attacked for your faults and I hate it. Can you figure out what you want..from life and everything else? Can you figure out who you wanna trust and who you want out of your life? Can you figure out who you are? God why is this so hard? Also can you just stop being so anxious? Honestly it's so annoying when you're just telling me stuff I don't wanna hear.. No, I don't wanna know if that friend of mine has found her perfect life.. or if that guy I liked has completely moved on and forgotten me.. Can you stop trying to make me feel pathetic about myself? Can you let me be a fool sometimes? Let me do cringey things? Let me forget about the part where I care what everyone thinks? Can you let me live?

Sincerely,
Heart.

3am Thoughts

My ex bf got engaged today it's just so hard to handle the truth that we are not together anymore 

Jealous

seeing my best friend sad is making me so sad :( i wish i could take all her sadness from her 

Monica Geller : You've got to get over this. Okay? You won't end up alone.
Chandler : Of course I am. I reject anyone who's crazy enough to actually go out with me, and then I bitch that there aren't any great women out there!!


Chandler is me and I think I will die alone!!  :)(:

Relationships

Noone for my bachelor party.
Though I'm going to celebrate on my own.

Exhausted

My life's biggest mistake was to think that I'll be okay without you. The trust is, that I'm not and I will never be..
 I miss youu ! whyyy can't you just come back and stay onlyyy mine.. It took me month to love you but it is taking me forever to move on.
Truth to be told, whenever a lover or a close companion is away from us. We often crave for their attention more than when we are with them.
There is not a single day when I don't think about you and I don't miss you. I just want to go back int the time and cherish all those memories 
that I have with you. Because, if not with you, I would love to live with your memoriesssss... I want youu backk in my lifee againnn  
I keep telling myself yo get ovver you, but every night I find myself thinking about how much I need you.
I want you that's it. All your flaws, mistakes, smiles, jokes, everything....!!!
since you left my life, I  have always pretended that all well but I know deep down inside of me that you have left in me a hollow that 
cannot be filled by any other person. My mind is filled with the memories of the two of us together. 
You are still in my head.
I may not be your first, your last, or only yours, you loved before or you may love again.
I loved you and nothing else matters to me....! You aren't perfect - I'm not either, and two of us may be perfect together, if I make you laugh,
cause you think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes. I'll hold onto you and will give my best as much I can.
You may not think about me every single second of the day, but you gave me a part of you that you know I can break - your heart* 
I will not hurt you, will not change you, and will not analyze and will not expect more that this.
7 years of lovee and still waiting 🌸💕

So there's one guy who keeps sending me follow request on insta its been months but he keep sending me flow request...I kind of know of actually he's my neighbors friend...he saw me like one or two times...but Idk why he sends me follow request quite often...should I accept his request or leave it like that?

Confusion

Why am I attracted to tomboys.  I am a girl too. 

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