Feeling lonely is normal. But being terrified by it is not. I am terrified of being lonely. I have people in my life who are there for me in every aspect of my life, but I live in this constant fear that these people will just leave me alone; just vanish away maybe. I always need a reassurance that people are going to be there with me. That feeling is exhausting. 🙂

Hey. There are billions of people in this world, you will ALWAYS have someone in your corner. With everything going on, and just life in general, it’s easy to forget the people we have but just trust that as long as you are there for people, people are there for you. 

Lonely

You can either experience the pain of discipline or the pain of regret. The choice is yours.

Quotes

Day 225 of writing journal entries.

It was a decent day. First 90% I felt awesome, productive as always, and happy! Then of course my family decided to be cranky, and well if they’re cranky i’m not allowed to be happy I have to be cranky to. So I’m annoyed they acted the way they did, but when they started I just left and stayed in my room the rest of the day.

So it wasn’t a bad day at all, but that was slightly irritating. A good thing that happened today was a new PR on my 1.5 mile running time. I hit 10:45! 😎 That was super exciting so I’m glad I did that.

That’s basically all for today! See y’all again tomorrow. 😁 Starting tomorrow there’s 15 days left of summer, I think, it might be 14. 😂

I hope you’re all well! Peace be with you.

Personal Growth

I don’t want to blame my parents. Because they have raised me the best they can. But in some phases of my life, I grew up with fear and low self esteem. School life, college life and then university life- all three at a stretch felt like it has grasped me slowly. May be I have learnt so many things in the long run but along with this I have developed severe anxiety, fear ,low self esteem and many more. I have everything in life but I live like a coward. When problems come, I get so scared that I don’t want to face them. My this kind of behaviour makes me feel like I haven’t grown with healthy environment. Little by little, every day, I have made a lot of disappointments in my life and right now I feel like I have badly damaged my mental health so much.

Mental Health

i got out of a 3 year relationship where my partner broke up with me 3 times and it was my partner who took all breakup decisions
i feel whenever there was a down in the relationship my partner broke it off instead of trying
my partner says we are forcing ourselves into it
everytime my partner brokeup with me, they hsve been thinking about everything for a few months prior to breakup but for me when they told me about the breakup it was always a shock.
they also say that im way to kind caring and sweet for a person like them and that the relation we both have is better as best friends compared to a relationship 
but i cannot seem to digest it because i never looked at it that way and i cant
because we both know that the relationship we had was the best for both of us

idk why my partner is doing this and idk what i should do now


Breakup

The worst feeling is not knowing if you should wait or give up 

Anyone here from Pakistan?

3am Thoughts

Elevate yourself through your own efforts,not degrades yourself.
For mind, can be the friend or the enemy of the soul.
Good night 

Affirmations

I really need a friend. 
Sometimes i get depressed because of it. 
I don't know what God's choice. But i dont have any good friend with whom i can talk about everything, anytime with full excitement. 
I have many people around me. 
But I want a true friend. 
Who didn't get bored of me. And we both do fun, dancing, singing, joking together. With whom i can make call anytime. 
I really want 🤧🤧🤧

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