Feeling great...
My first message 
Not  exactly msg...a greeting to all of you 

3am Thoughts

Tu shabdon ka das re jogi, 
Tera kahan vishvas re Jogi..
Ik din vish ka pyala pi ja,
Fir na lgegi pyaas re Jogi.. 

I am unhappy with my looks at the moment I wanna look like I do now just prettier. How can I make it happen? I want to do this for myself not anybody else. 

Self Esteem

Day by day I am loosing hope in myself 
I am a failure 

Career

I don't feel like doing anything. I lost a way of my life. No one help me now. I want to share my ideas with somebody. However, my interest is so specific that I avoid talking about them. I don't want to bother friends of mine. 
My situation has been terrible. I want to escape from here right now. But, I can't. Thare is a big reason not to. So this is dilemma. I am suffering serious dilemma.

Depression

Hey this is related to someone from whom I'm having a hard time moving on. I started **seeing this guy (call him Shark)** 4 yrs back when i **was already in a very long term relationship with someone else** . Shark made me feel like everything is attainable and it was a nice feeling to have for a 16 yr old girl. Some time later i **confessed to my boyfriend** that I'm seeing another guy and we instantly **broke up**. I was devastated and didn't know how to move past my **guilt for cheating** . Few months later **i broke up with Shark** to get back with my old boyfriend coz that seemed like the only solution for my guilt but that didn't work out too. A year later **i met shark again** and i started feeling for him again. I literally **threw myself and my heart to him** so that he accept me but he didn't coz **he didn't trust me anymore** . He was a **real gentleman** all along and never in any way took advantage of me. After all the stalking he finally blocked me. It's **been 2 years** and I've been in 2 relationships (one is ongoing) but **i still get anxious** when i hear shark's name . Also apparently shark is a good friend of my current boyfriend. **I'm afraid I'll screw over this relationship which i don't want to** . I haven't been in contact with shark for 2 yrs but it still makes me feel weird. **I feel like i can never be loyal to anybody and nobody should trust me coz I'll screw over. I don't feel emotionally satisfied.**

If you have any kind words that can help. Pls share.


Mental Health

Life is not about complaining pain nd sorrows . It is about a thousand other reasons to be grateful and happy 😊

Happy

I don't know why people leave us . It's been 5 years . Should I wait for her

One Sided Love

One year ago today, was my second day spending time with Meredith. And on this day, one year ago, her and I went to have lunch and then we spent some time touring the bookstore. Oh, how I miss her so terribly. ￼

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