Feel like I am sinking badly. Only negative thoughts. Feels like I can’t take it this time. Just wanna bang my head 

Ohh what happened with you so you feel like this?


Depression

I dont know why but somde days or nightsblike these ,i have this deep unsettling pain in chest and feel like crying a lot, cant eat anything. And its mostly on weekends when i have to take a break from my studies. I hate breaks. Everything is fine around me, loving boyfriend,family, etc, sab fine. Still idk why this keeps happening. I feel worthless and scared. 

Anxiety

I am feeling sad and overwhelmed. 

Depressed

I never felt so lonely in my life, no friends, or anyone to talk to. I keep on pushing people away from me coz I don't know how to trust....  An HIV positive, am a mother  of a 1year 3mounths boy, no parents. 

My problems started after I lost my parents,it wasn't easy but I kept a smile on my face an tried to move on. A year after I found out I am pregnant an HIV positive an the  father of my baby wants nothing to do with us,  an I still smiled an act as if everything is okay.i don't have friends, my own family don't like me an even when I try to talk no one takes me Cruz.  I keep hurting people around even my sister hates me. An being umployed makes everything worse coz I have to depend on people who pretend to love me. 

Feeling anxious.... 
Past few years had been the worst... I took back to back wrong decisions... Wronged on a whole different level... And landed myself into crap
Academically I legit failed my own self
Had the worst breakdowns
Moreover, lost all my friends (I had 2_ 3)... Not regret that though
Lost myself... Destroyed. PERIOD. 
I bursted out in tears yesterday night... Like i felt numb 
Tears came out for about an hour and I felt nothing... 
I m not complaining.. Nope.. Just venting it all out for once... 
Looking at myself I think losers are fr... 
I thought life is about winning
It's been everything but victory to me 
AND THAT SH*T SUCKS... I can not breath somedays... And this is not an exaggeration... 
That's it!... One more day 
With hope and faith that things might mend... Coz come on that's all we can do... 
Lastly, bravo to my strong self for bearing this! To people experiencing something similar : Stop expecting.. Be neutral.. And no i would not lit up ur souls by saying that it's gonna get better, something amazing is about to come, bla bla bla... No coz it's not... A person in this situation is merely surviving..  And that's what they should strive for... SURVIVAL! Rest all is upto your conception that to what extent shall you accept.. So whatever it is good or bad accept with a brutally honest outlook and then act... Try to move.. Step by step day by day... Lastly f*ck what it was, it is what it is. 
PEACE OUT✌

Exhausted

I feel like i have become a hyper independent woman over time. Yes i tried looking for a partner but some guys made me realise why im better off alone. I always wanted to be independent but now i have stopped looking out for people. I have developed hatred towards people nowadays. People are shitty. I am forced to become a logical person when sometimes i need to ignore my emotions to make correct decisions. Idk how long i can be like this. But guess what i am feeling amazing to not give a fuck anymoree. I dont damn care about anyone now as i am tired and selfish. I will always protect myself first anytime....

3am Thoughts

Who do I feel overwhelmed?

Mental Wellbeing

Hi, I..idk like I don't really know how to express my feelings. It's like a strange amount of feelings rushing through my brain at the same time. I want to eat something but I just lose the will and wish to eat it as soon as I get it infront of me. My mind isn't stable. I keep thinking all the time. I stay at home all day in complete silence. I don't talk to my family. The fights all the time just make me sick and angry and I'm suppressing all the anger because I just can't do anything about it and I'm getting tired of it.
I have no idea what's going on with me.

Anger Issues

Everyday at the end of the day i feel the same . Sad , depressed , broken and not have reasons to live . Everything around is just mess and i am all alone and now its getting harder to deal . Everyday i wanna disappear.

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